hi all.
been 31 days since i have had a ciggarette. i am doing well, am using the pathches and they really help. other information is i have taken of 8 kilos as well. have seen my doctor recently, we are working on ways to aide my development by unlocking a amnesia to do with my childhood. 13 years and down. people have always said that this full amnesia is a protector, but i am ready to face the darkness. i will also be talking to my psychiatrist about it next consult. my general practioner gave me some beautiful wisdom. i was both taken back and nearly in tears, thus i have some purpose about myself at the moment. My psychiatrist feels that i am less rapid cycling at the moment, true less, albeit the mixed mood state has increased. also my personality disorder has flared for sometime now. due to the intensity of it it has caused me much grief. i lost the friendship of a dear friend...but i was not on top of it, and was careless, thus i have to live with it. still i am sad about it. i have been excessively busy. bloods, groups, more excercizing, more cleaning around the house. have cleaned out the spare room and have done some other much needed chores. you all know what it is like!! so at the moment i am depressed in a mixed mood state. have typed out my letter and dot form mood diary as well. did the sleep study last week, man you get wired up, and i mean wired!!!!!!!! will have results in 4 weeks. my mum at almost 60 has got some training-work at kmart 3 days a week. is for 3 -4 weeks. she feels good about it. this is motivating me!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, take care everyone.
with much compassion 2 u all. jamie