Crash has lifted a little

After almost two weeks of severe depression with SI, today I am feeling a little better. Still stressed and mood is low, but it feels like a weight has been lifted just feeling a little better. I know I don't have to explain to you guys.

Seeing pdoc for the second time this week in about 15 mins. We increased the Lamotrigine and I even increased my Seroquel XR to 100mg so I really think that's helped.

Now it's back to the nightmare of trying to figure out how to stop my cycling. I won't lie, I am extremely anxious about it. It's like, the Lamotrigine increases my cycling, but clearly without it I become deeply depressed and in that dark place day after day. I definitely cannot be depressed. But I know I can't be cycling either....It's so awful this confusion!! I know I should be focusing on taking deep breaths and letting the professionals sort this out.

Anyway, I am so thankful it is the weekend and I can sleep in tomorrow. I need the rest for sure.

I hope you are all feeling well today.

Hugs,
Mogs

Thanks Caren :)

Pdoc is adding Topamax so we shall see.....I can't believe how tired I am. I have been at work every single day going through this and words can't describe what that has done to me. I have reached a whole new level of exhaustion.