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Posted 10/3/2015 5:43 AM (GMT -5)
Hi everyone-just introducing myself-hoping this forum will provide some support from those who understand mental illness. I gave birth to my son in May 2012, spiralled into severe post natal depression, and in March 2013 suffered a breakdown and was hospitalised for 18 days and diagnosed bipolar (I was diagnosed with depression at 21 in 2007). Until my mood stabilizers were adjusted properly I was a monster. I punched mirrors, smashed glasses, and self harmed. The thing is, I always wonder if it really is bipolar as I never get euphoric highs. I get energetic and make big plans (which I never carry out) but mostly have rage episodes. I don't have those anymore, but rather depression and lack of interest or excitement in anything, no motivation and fatigue. When I do get my short lived energy bursts they come with severe anxiety too. Looking back to my early to mid 20's, I did engage in drugs, risky and impulsive behaviours. I just wonder if I can still be classed as bipolar if I only have occasional rages and mood swings and never euphoric highs or delusions of grandeur. Also a sufferer of crippling anxiety.

Well that's me-probably too much for just an intro! smhair
Posted 10/3/2015 9:56 PM (GMT -5)
Hello FF,

Welcome to the forum :-)! I am glad you joined.

Thank you for sharing a bit about yourself with us. Did you visit any doc after for another evaluation and diagnosis? Those listed are signs of Bipolar and also Borderline Personality disorder. It also sounds like Bipolar a bit like mania. During this phase, one can get angry for no reason and get out of control sometimes. However, a psychiatrist usually makes that diagnosis. I know you mentioned mood stabilizers so I would suggest you talk to your doc about this.
Do you still experience these episodes?

I too experience some of those symptoms you list and struggle with them even today. Have you been to therapy or do you use any coping skills? I did CBT and DBT. Please feel free to check out our resources area for info.

I see you're a mommy to a 3 year old. This is nice. I like your positive signature line "I won't stop fighting". :-)

Welcome again! Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.

UA
Posted 10/5/2015 3:19 PM (GMT -5)
  hi ff,

i too, was misdiagnosed initially as depression,anxiety. I was placed on zoloft and over a 3 year period, went thru periodic dosage increases. 

the zoloft kept me in a 24/7 manic flare. screaming, yelling, trying to get someone to listen.

I also went thru my sex, drugs, alcohol, and rock n roll phase. 

for me meds can induce some serious mania/anxiety. 

bi polar + co disorders can be difficult to treat.  my research has empowered me to challenge my PDOC. Right now, less is more.  I need to keep my brain calm.  i am only taking low dose seroquel to sleep. i also have 5mg buspar for anxious moments during the day.  I also am adjusting my other meds for; MS, cirrhosis, atherosclerosis, bipolar, adhd, and i stopped opioids for 5 herniated discs.  time for a buspar break!!!!

barry

 

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