Jane, hope things go well today!

Lori, I don't know how you got through it having both thyroid and breast cancer, but then maybe I do...you just told me.

I haven't had surgery yet and waiting for the date is nerve racking as well wishing it was over and I could get started on treatment.  Were you ever in denial that all this isn't really happening and when everyone tells you don't worry you'll be fine did you want to say what makes YOU so sure. Oh well I shouldn't feel this way after all what can anyone say other than that. I mean they can't say OMG cancer your might die. Everyone is really being so nice and has offered to take and bring me home from the hospital. I would like to go alone and come home the next day alone, but I know someone has to pick me up, hospital rules.

I'll work on what you said, makes sense...I can do it. You give me hope Lori knowing what you went through in fact everyone here gives me hope because they understand having lived with cancer. Don't know what I would do without the HW family. Without you gals I would be on my fourth forum and that would be Depression. Trying my best to stay positive on a low day. Tomorrow will be better. 

Don't know if I told you my doctor called Thursday and said the biopsy of my lymph nodes came back...no cancer. She said the real test will be in the OR when they send a LN to pathology. Asked her if she thought they would find cancer...she said no. Hoping she's right and I only lose one LN and wondering if I need any kind of chemo. Wish I knew what was to come, will soon for sure.

Jane

Hi Bev

Doesn't tamoxfen cause hair loss, can't handle that. Post menopausal and have very thin hair on top even set up an appointment for a hair transplant and had to cancel because of Lyme Disease, takes all day and I just wasn't up to it. Had no idea at the time I had BC.

I'm ash blond, straight hair, no gray and reading horror stories about after chemo hair coming in thin and gray.

Didn't know that you had to stay on chemo for years either and also thought being good news HER 2 minus E/P plus ment no chemo. So what's so good about it. If I don't have cancer on my LN could it be I don't need chemo??? if yes then why?

Why does treatment have to go on and on and on. I think I read too much and it doesn't come together for me so I come here and it really does get sorted out.

Thinking maybe I still have brain fog from Lyme and can't remember all I should. One thing I don't want is to turn myself over to my doctors to do as they wish without giving me very good reasons for their choices. I want to be as involved in my treatment as much as I can...advice I got from here at HW.

about not giving a minute of your life to Cancer did you feel that way when first diagnosed or later, maybe much later. Did Lori?

I'm glad I got the mammogram and at the same time sorry...guess thinking what you don't know won't hurt you. I know better, just dumb thinking on another low day that was supposed to be a high day. Sorry to be such a downer and a pain in the ***.

Jane