The will to live and live fully!!!

MK, your post cracked me up and I love your sense of humor in this whole process. Way to go!

But as for hospice, I know they don't do treatment but if a radiation boost is for pain control, I'd think they do it with no question....of if the goal is to treat pain and not treat, I hope they oblige and offer as much help as possible.

Thank for the update and the smile, we're all rooting for you and Chuck!

Mk, I'm so glad to hear things are going so well! That is just such terrific news! Will power is an incredible thing.

Thanks for letting us know!

Love and hugs...
BEV

I guess I should come back and say the radiation did not help him any. He was so sure it would but yet it seems to have made him feel more pain. The day before we went for radiation he was in so much pain in his chest even the hospice nurse called 911. There were no signs that it was his heart but we wondered if the gall bladder had kicked up again. Seems neither was the problem. The ER doc said he felt it was the mets in the sternum causing the pain. So we came back home from the local hospital and got up and under way to FW at 7 the next morning for the radiation. The rads dr hit the sternum, the hip and a new place on the femur with the heavy duty one dose radiation. We got signed back into hospice so he could be helped by them again. He really seems to hurt a lot. Yesterday he was trying to remove a long screw and it took three times at least of lying back down in his bed and getting up to take a few more turns. I got him a laptop some time ago but he wanted a printer to use in his room, so we got that and he was trying to fit it to the desk three feet from his bed, so that was why he was trying to take out the screw. Now this is the guy who swears he is going to use a new shop to work on his farm machinery this winter. He met with the guy to close in the shop and insisted on giving him a check for half the amount. OK now where is the man? Haven't heard from him again. It's only been a week but he said he wasn't busy and could get to it right away. Grrrrrr If he had just listened to me and waited until he was feeling better. But no he wanted to be ready to go when he was feeling good. And Carolyn is just as stubborn. Things do not sound good with her, but don't tell her that. She had bloodwork done on Wed and they were to call her with tumor markers and liver enzymes. No call but she got a letter in the mail they were going to do another CT scan. Why the letter????? Why no call????? Chris will be back next week for another week. Bless her, she is such a big help. Amy is resting at home waiting until we need her again. Meanwhile I am trying to rest and not do too much. Hugs MK

Please don't worry for me. Worry doesn't help it only hurts you. One of my favorite quotes from the Bible and I am no scholar for sure goes something like this, God takes care of even the little sparrows. Another, everything works out for the best. Chuck is doing ok. His pain has not lessened, he still can't be out of bed for any length of time because he can't walk nor sit for very long.

OK I had the MRI on my knee. You know how everyone complains about the tech not telling you anything? Well the tech told me there was something there that was not just what the dr suspected, something else that might need to be taken care of soon. She said to make an appointment for my followup with the dr, but be sure they had a good phone number to call me if the dr needed to see me sooner. She said once the radiologist reads the MRI he may contact the dr and the dr may need to call. OK that's great, what could it possibly be? We know there is a Baker's cyst, we know the bursa is very tender to touch and the dr suspected a miniscular tear, but she said it was none of those, something new. The crazy part is that my knee is not hurting nearly as bad as it did. I told her that and she asked if I was babying it. Well, of course I am, I don't want it to hurt like it did before. The thing that keeps running in my mind is bone mets. Does an MRI show that? A blood clot way inside my knee? That would cause immediate concern. Who knows? But I am following my own advice and not worrying until I have something to worry about.

Our son showed up at the door Monday evening completely by surprise. He goes home tomorrow, so this morning we are meeting Carolyn and Erica and family that can be there for breakfast at IHOP. We have over an hour's travel to get there, Carolyn has chemo at 11 so we are meeting on her way to town. Erica has school and this was the only time we could all be together. Chuck most likely will want to stay home, and I worry about leaving him for so long. He will be ok if he doesn't do something stupid like decide to go outside and the dogs get out around him, which is easy for them to do. Three Hospice people were here yesterday at one time. It is not likely any of them will be back today.

OK it is 5 am and I woke up at 3 thinking of things I needed to remember before I leave this morning. They are done, so I decided to look at the computer. Mistake, huh? No more sleep this morning. I will go back and lie down now, tho.

Hugs MK