Dilemna

Have been wanting to post for months. I am ready to give up trying to help myself. Since my post would be a novel, I'll summarize. I was hit by a car, thrown through the windshield before being thrown on the street while walking 8 yrs ago. Sustained a broken left leg, shattered left pelvis and small fractures in back. After trauma surgery and leaving inpatient rehab, I did outpatient PT, successfully regained mobility and was able to walk again. The following year my Crohns had me in hospitals constantly. I was still working but was deathly ill. Failed biologics etc. Food commercials had me dry retching. Fast forward to 2012 and my emergency bowel resection. I recovered from that but due to job changes and my health, I took mandatory early retirement. Had no money but applied for SSDI and received approval. 29 mos. Later Medicare kicked in and I had a supplement. My early wd monies paid bills. I have had pain since 2010 and was on Rx oxyvontin, etc since that time. In 2016 I called 911 reluctantantly and was informed by my neurosurgeon that "I was dead when he got to me". I had an infection in my spine and had major neurosurgery, grafts,disks removed, and rods inserted. I had been w my drs office for 35 years and in pain management. Was told by PA that I would be weaned and I was. I never abused, sold it violated contract until my last two months. Because of this fact, I've been suffering since June. I will take responsibility for my stupidity but I did not mention that I was happy to wean, and was advised by the first specialist I visited to work with an anesthegeologist. I'm suffering, i take sdvil and aspirin and my crohns protests. I'm in pain, don't sleep, lost more weight nd because of poor judgement, and drs mistake, feel as though I've been tossed aside to die after fighting for my life 3 times. I'm angry and I need advice.

Chester:
I would second Straydog’s suggestion that you look for/explore options for a new physician to evaluate and treat your pain.

While it is never good to stray from the explicit covenants of a pain contract, that you did should not condemn you to a life-term sentence of untreated pain and personal agony. Owning to your error, as you have, shows reflection and maturity and a likelihood not to repeat if given a second chance with a pain provider.

I also agree with the sentiment expressed by one of your physicians to seek a pain management practitioner with licensure in anesthesiology. There is often a higher finery of acumen from an anesthesiologist than other subspecialities who dable in pain management.

I have lived with untreated moderate/severe pain and can attest to pain’s detrimental effects of one’s thinking processes and sense of being. Pain hijacked every waking moment of every day. One day blurred into another.

There is no award given for suffering.

My perspective of medicine and medical care has morphed over the years that I have become more frail and subsequently more reliant on medical care. It is a colundrum. Every day, physicians and ancillary providers make mistakes and missteps that adversely affect patients. Often with no corrective actions taken. That you made a mistake in judgment with a pain contract should also have room for redemption and a new start. I think you will be able to find a physician empathetic to the complex dynamics of living in pain and who will extend to you another opportunity for pain management.

We all deserve to live a life without intolerable pain.
Karen

Ill make this brief but forgot to add I have severe osteoperosis. Thyroid disease and optic neuritis. I was always honest when admitted to hospital about my meds. Etc. I was pulled off meds w nothing offered to assist. Also my Dr is semi retired and I would have a Dr I developed a relationship w only to go s free months later and Dr. # 2 appearedmn. They scattered due to deal. Etc fears. My pharmacy records r pristine no was just starting a switch to a patch cause I'm a rapid absorber when my hell started. I could not explain this to the few pain management drs. I saw because I did not want to badmouth or blame.

PM drs are even more stringent since opioid crisis. Prior to that mine still had contract. I know if I referred patients to one, ( I worked in gi office) if they got dropped, it was EXTREMELY hard to find another. With that being said I have been at my doctors office and heard the pain management nurse say you failed your drug test we give you one more opportunity. Don’t know what you did but if I was you and you were a previous patient for a long time I would make an appointment with your doctor or write a letter and plead your case to give you one more opportunity. With that being said I have been at my PM doctors office and heard the pain management nurse say you failed your drug test . BUT we give you one more opportunity. Don’t know what you did but if I was you and you were a previous patient for a long time I would make an appointment with your doctor or write a letter and plead your case to give you one more opportunity The doctors are just scared of all the overdoses and deaths.

Hi Chester, what a mess. Are you not pursuing medical treatment at this point? Sounds like you have insurance and plenty of conditions that need treatment. It can wear you out, trying to deal with dr's. Definitely. Take a deep breath and call another psych. Go to another PC dr. Do what you have to do. You might be able to get other meds to help, such as Gabapentin and/or Muscle Relaxers. CBD oil is useful if allowed. Good luck!

Adderall does not contain methamphetamine. Unless your pain doctor also prescribes your Adderall. Chances are you are not drug tested for it by your pain doctor. When you tested positive for methamphetamine. The doctor redid the test. You pain doctor can tell if you have a prescription for Adderall by looking on your states PMP.

The methamphetamine is a,different matter. It does not matter who made the "vitamin." It does not matter what you thought it was. Anyone that gives anyone any amount of a drug without telling them is irresponsible. Telling a doctor a friend made a vitamin and put methamphetamine in it. Will make no difference. Not when it comes to a doctor trusting your judgement.

I assume you did not have a,prescription from another doctor for the morphine. In all honesty between that and the methamphetamine. It is highly doubtful you will find another doctor that will manage your pain with opiates. In addition, new doctors want a copy of medical records from the previous doctor. A new doctor will want to obtain these directly from your previous doctor.

Doctors can see all of the doctors that have prescribed you Schedule II drugs along with the specifics. All a doctor has,to do is look up your profile in your states Prescription Monitoring Program database. Some PMP also list other schedules of drugs prescribed.