It just wont go away.

his ex killing herself, "borrowed" money from me for rent, threatened to kill my family, friends and then me and

one day simply vanished.

I believed everything at the time, I slowly let contact with friends die, and nearly cut all contact with my dad and brother

(because it was what he wanted). My uni course was affected because of it, luckily i passed my first year, it affected how

i was mentally, and my physical appearance changed dramatically (i felt getting made up was a waste of time and my friends even said at the time, it was sad to see me go for really bubbly and out-going, to isolated and depressed in a matter of 2

months) 

I recently found love again after very long battle with going home to see my family (which did help in the long run)

but after my ex my insecurities came out and paranoia set in .... He suuggested i go and see a counsellor ... to help me over-come these issues but I feel it was an easy way out for him (although he has said he'll stand by me .... I feel it was an easy route out)

I thought i'd try an online forum out first rather than going straight into a counselling programme ...

any replies will be a start.

Thank you xx

Thanks for sharing your story.  If you want an online forum that has caring and compassionate folks - this is the place to be.  I checked out a number of them before I decided to join this one.

From my experience, finding a therapist who is right for you is very important.  I found one, and it has made a lot of difference for me.  I told her I had become a member of HW, and she was quite pleased, and she is encouraging me to be here and to stick with it.

Hope you will stick around and find some of the answers you are seeking.  Welcome!

Scythia