I hate being Black girl…it’s a curse. Black girls are
deemed the least desirable and least attractive race. I would have been happy
if I was born any other race or was at least mixed so I could have had a better
chance at looking decent. Black female features are considered unfeminine many
people even say that they look men. I always hear people say that, “It’s hard
to find a pretty Black girl…she usually has to be mixed to be pretty”. Dark
skin is considered a masculine trait and natural Black hair is viewed as unattractive.
Majority of guys even go for light skinned girls who are
White, Asian, Latina, Indian or mixed. Many Black guys also choose these girls
over Black girls. There are only few guys that actually like Black girls
and those guys are hard to find. I am horrified and hurt that I was born this
way. People have always told me to “love myself as I am” which drives me crazy
especially when the person who says it is some other race. Maybe it’s easy for
them to love themselves but they have no idea how it feels to live being a Black
female. I was bullied all through elementary, middle and high school because of
my hair and skin. Because of this I developed depression and anxiety issues and
it all just gets worse. I really want to lighten my skin and get a weave. Do
you know any good safe skin lightening creams? Do you know any other ideas on
how I can improve my appearance?