Couch Monster Strikes Again

Been a few weeks since I last posted and I have ha my up and downs. I go a couple weeks of feeling great and then a few of feeling anxious and depressed.

This week has been one where I have let the anxiety overwhelm me. I have spent the last three days on the sofa. When the kids come home, I get up and take care of them. My spirit is drained and I am scared.

My therapist had to cancel this week, so I had no one to speak with. Had couples therapy last night. It seems to be going well, but my wife and I are still struggling.

The past year has been hell and I'm scared I am going back to a state where I needed ECT. That is something I never want to do again and couldn't put my family through. Two rounds was one too many.

Debating on switching Psycharists. Someone who does more then jus distribute drugs. I feel like if I could get my anxiety under control, a lot of these bad symptoms would dissipate. I take clonapim for it, but I just can't shake this one. I do exercise and it helps, but when I get like this I just shut down and stop exercising.

I feel like I'm in a cycle of self-defeating behavior and thoughts and I know what is best, but just can't bring myself to push myself to do these things.

For anyone who is reading. Thanks for letting me vent.

JMP

jmp there is a saying... move the muscles and mind will follow...
it is true for the most part.

staying in a routine is very important. I know that it is hard when you are in the place where you are, however you can climb out as easily as a 10min walk a day.

Stay strong
Peace
Trina

I truly believe in the meditation for anxiety. It keeps it so much under control. Breathing also helps, in through the nose and out through the mouth. With a little work you and the clonapin will get things where you can handle them.

I would talk to your psychiatrist if you have issues you want to discuss. Most psychiatrists send you to a therapist for counseling, they mainly write prescriptions. Though my psychiatrist does talk to me some, I see his nurse, she is a psychologist. I had therapy yesterday and it went well.

Keep hanging in there. It gets hard, but we get through it. One day at a time. Staying in the present helps a lot.

Swimming too. Relaxing...

You will feel better soon. Just don't give up. Walk whenever you get a chance. It helps both physically and mentally.

Hugs, Karen...

One day at a time is all you can do, and once you start doing it, you will find that it is a lot easier than thinking about the past or future. Living in the moment it is called. It really helps to relieve the mind. Keep practicing it. It does help.

I sure do hope that you feel better soon. Keep posting JMP, it does help to get things off of your chest, and we all understand what you are going through. I find walking helps me to be mindful. It gets the endorphins going too, and relaxes me. I try to walk daily, but with the weather, it has been hard. The winter hurts me there.

Keep your chin up. Keep a good attitude. Have a good evening...

Hugs, Karen...

JMP,

Keep doing what you are doing. We have to do this a little at a time. It is like finding our niche with life style changes. Take it as it comes, kind of go with the flow. As Trina always says, the mind moves, the body will follow. You are actually doing good with all you did this morning. Taking care of you and your health, the rest just kind of falls into place. Kudos to you!!!

Hugs, Karen...