I've recently made an effort to change my life. I started going to a new school, am living with my boyfriend and his family, and stopped talking to toxic people that used to be my friends. I'm even seeing a therapist. But despite all of that, I still think about
often. I always thought the cause of my depression was my family or the people I surrounded myself with. But it's still here.
I feel more alone than ever.
If I try to talk about
it with my boyfriend, he just gets stressed because it just adds on to his worries. I've began to resent him because he doesn't understand. And I resent myself too, because I feel weak. I'm beginning to think making the change was a bad idea. I know it was stupid of me to assume that changing the scenery would cure me, but I at least thought it would make a difference.
Part of me knows that would be unfair to everyone that does care for me, and that I haven't really lived life yet. But the other part believes that if I've never really been happy, how can I ever be?
I guess what I'm asking is if anyone knows any methods to cope with these kinds of feelings. And if anyone else has been in similar situations with loved ones. I'd really appreciate your advice.
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