Hello everyone,
It's the first time I ever post on a forum so bare with me.
I'm an 19 year old guy and I have a depression since I was 17, recently I started accepting help. to explain my situation. I never had many friends or people around me who I really cared about
besides family. recently I met a girl through online gaming and we got along very very well. we are very alike and like the same things. she's the first person I ever fell truly in love with. we plan on meeting each other but nothing solid yet, we talk everyday almost every hour and she truly makes my mood better. in messages we send each other kisses and frequently use the words; dear, or love. and I love you and such. I recently
opened up to her about
how I felt. she kinda dodged the question at first but later admitted that in the position where she lives now she cannot be in a relationship. I'm not 100% if our love goes both ways but I keep pretending it is. because sadly, it's the only thing that keeps me going right now. and i'm not sure if she knows it. I'm truly afraid to lose her.. I don't know what else I would have and if I will do stupid things I end up regretting. I cannot detach myself from her nor do I want to. but to constantly have these uncertainties. I don't know what to do, I need advice. do I keep pretending and wait how this turns out. or do I push her again and ask for solid answers.
