Frustrated

I found out I have lyme disease in July, at a holistic clinic in Germany. My blood test were negative, but borrelia showed on another test they do with some machine so the doc said he's certain I have it. Ive been treating with homeopathic substances, also stayed at the clinic for the whole month of October and did Ozone therapy, IV drips, and many other treatments. I did get much better for the first couple weeks there but then got worse again. 4 months of alternative treatments and nothing so I wanna do antibiotics. Saw an infectious disease specialist yesterday and he said that because my blood test was negative he doesnt think I have it especially because i didnt get the rash. He also blasted IgeneX saying that theyre testing shows false positives so people can get treated for something they dont have. My symptoms started the day I came home from a fishing trip in northern Ontario (im from Toronto). I KNOW it in my gut its what I have. I asked the doctor in Germany if he can write a prescription that I could show to a doctor and start antibiotics. This whole situation makes me so angry. Ugh.

I hope so. Ive been staying in Florida with my mom and stepdad but am going home on Sunday. I really need help because even the doctor from Germany says he does not want me taking antibiotics, and on top of that he wants me to go see doctors and see what they think is wrong with me. A neurologist already told me he though it was ms and i dont want doctors to play guessing games with me. So sick of this!

Exactly, the symptoms are very similar but the progression doesnt match ms. I already started a thread asking for an LLMD but sadly there are none near me, but Trav did send me info on a lyme clinic near my city that does alternative treatments. We'll see where the road takes me.