Hi Shadow,

I don't have kids, but if it's possible, try to listen to your body instead of the people around you suggesting to do things, or (especially) to yourself saying you need to do certain things.

Sorry to sound so straight forward, but I have experienced that when I'm taking rest, that I don't all the time feel at the point of having a serious nervous breakdown. I still feel like utter crap, everything aches, but the quiet moments do me good, and I feel that I really need them. I often ask my husband to go and see his friends - and he doesn't mind .

I know that these holidays are difficult, especially with family, you just want to participate and belong with the rest...

I only have my dad, and I haven't seen him since Xmas, same for my sister - I was feeling guilty about this the last few days, and for a moment I thought: why won't I just ask them over for Easter, they're family, not everything needs to be perfect, I'll just cook something simple and easy?

Luckely I didn't... someone drove into my car before yesterday, and my structurized 'sleep-eat-work-eat -sit in couch-sleep' routine was turned upside down. I'm feeling a huge emotional setback now. Yesterday evening I thought I would loose it, so angry, so empty - today I'm zombie-like...

Hold on Shadow, I wish you lots of strength...

M

Thanks Marie and Justme. What do you think is helping you to have better days? I kind of just decided that I am going to have give ME a break. You know it isn't so much what other people expect as it is that it is so frustrating to not be able to do what you used to be able to do. I just see everything as an energy suck instead of stuff to enjoy. My husband got the easter basket stuff and I am going to cook a ham and salad and my Mom is bringing quiches. I am dyeing eggs w the kids in a little bit. I am just trying to focus on the important stuff to do with the family.

This disease can really bite me!!

I think what is making me feel better, is keep trying different things, and detoxing. I added the advaclear for detox, the first day, it gave me a horrible headache, but now I feel that it is helping me.

I went weeks, and weeks , in horrible pain. I changed up everything , email me , and I will give you the list of what I am taking. I know that somethings work for some people, like doxy did not work for me for the three months I took it. I am doing the buhner protocol, and I have added to it.

Also if you are in a lot of pain, try fresh ginger from the store, it's cheap, and make a tea out of it, I add lemon and honey, and it helps with the pain. I am trying to stay away from pain pills, so I am taking a more natural approach to healing.

I do detox baths, infer sauna, and take the advaclear, and it seems to help me. I still have Lyme seizures, and I have my bad days, but I do now have good days. I also rest whenever I can, I take naps, if I don't I feel horrible. Some days just a half hour or so, but it seems to help me.

I also cook with lots of fresh garlic, and have now added vitamin c, and vitamin b12 daily.

I hope you start having some good days as well.

justme