I have thought that many times. What if I have somthing else other than lyme. What if Dr C is a quack just taking my money? I think these thoughts are normal. First I pray and ask God to protect me and guide me down the right path and second.....I feel worse when I take antibiotics.....its killing off somthing in my body!! I understand how you feel, we just need to keep educating ourselves, go with what works and stay away from what doesnt! For example, I was taking bee pollen that had been reccomended to me to increase energy. Well, had my labs done and my wbc that has do do with histamine response was very high. I think my body was responding to bee pollen w/o making me outwardly symptomatic. So, I quit. Trial and error I guess