I don't care about anything any more (thanks for the nice posts, though)! depressed, drained

Before I went to the ER, I was doing things, even when I didn't feel well.

I was kayaking, I went on an art studio tour, I went out to eat a few times with friends. I even had a small garden.

Now, I don't care about anything, and I don't want to eat or do anything.

I feel like I'm floating out of my body.

The abscess was really large (about 4 x 3 inches or so) and really deep. I should have been under general anesthesia. I can't stop thinking about the experience. I try, but I can't stop.

Meanwhile, my little finger is starting to get more infected.

I am depressed as (sorry Trav.). Hey, I thought I could use bad words, bc I figured they would get transformed by the computer, but I promise I won't anymore!
margaret

Thank you Lymie Girl. I have muscle relaxants, but I can't take them, because they make me feel so odd. Many of those kinds of medications contribute to my sleep walking, and that scares me.

I'm seeing a pastoral counselor tomorrow who is provided free of charge by the cancer center. I hope she's nondenominational. Sorry, but that's how I feel.

I hope it passes.

Margaret

teragram said...
Thank you Lymie Girl. I have muscle relaxants, but I can't take them, because they make me feel so odd. Many of those kinds of medications contribute to my sleep walking, and that scares me.

I'm seeing a pastoral counselor tomorrow who is provided free of charge by the cancer center. I hope she's nondenominational. Sorry, but that's how I feel.

I hope it passes.

Margaret

Please do be sure to go. Margaret. You need to work your way through this experience. You need to heal - in both ways - and get past it.


And I don't really care if you use those words on here!!! LOL! I just don't - although I do use them at home sometimes!

I'm glad you are meeting with someone who can hold your hand and give you strength, because that is just what we all wish we could do for you! Rest well and heal quickly.

Margaret - you're bound to feel down - you've been through he--. But, you will get through this tough time...it will get better with time.

I'm glad you are going to a Counsellor. You can get everything off your chest.
I went to one before I was diagnosed...and I looked forward to my appointments. It was a safe place for me to say what was on my mind...and cry...yup, sometimes as soon as i walked in the door, I was crying.

Hang in there....sending big hugs to you !

Hmm, my first reply didn't show up. I'm so sorry you don't have more support from your friends. You went through a very stressful time and it will take some time to get past it, but I believe you will. I hope the counselor is a good match for you and that she will give you the help and support you need.

(((((((HUGS)))))))

If you ever need someone to talk to on the phone, I am willing. Just send me an email and I will give you my phone number. I am not very good at calling people so I usually tell them to ring me. I hope you find strength and comfort as you deal with all of the stress you are experiencing. ((Hugs))

hope you are feeling a bit better these last days Margaret, thoughts and prayers your way!

Sending you lots of love today Margaret :)

Hello Margaret

I don't know the history of what you've gone through, but I recognise the despair that so often hits the "Lymed".

I don't know if this is helpful to you, but when I have felt at my lowest, I have transformed my sadness into anger, and channelled that anger into fighting those responsible for the Lyme Denial.

It's trendy to think of anger as a negative thing, but in fact it is a normal and natural human response to certain situations. There is a reason that Nature gave us the ability to feel that emotion.

As long as anger is directed at the guilty, and not at anyone innocent (including yourself!) it can be a constructive thing.

One other thing to bear in mind is that even if the things you have been through (and I dont know what you have been through) are more than enough to cause depression, it's still possible that you have a depression generated by neurological factors related to borreliosis/TBDs.

In that case, it's possible that something like Pura fish oil may help. (It's a brand of fish oil from which they have removed the dangerous toxins like mercury, which may be present in large amounts in your average OTC fish oils).

I dont have any connection with the company, dont worry. But I once witnessed this fish oil help someone with depression very much. It didn't cure her, but it lessened it enough to make her able to cope with her feelings.

Is there a Lyme group in your state that could send someone out to visit you (if you wanted that?)

Wishing you much strength,

Elena Cook

Thinking of you Margaret - use any words you want to express what you're feeling, just don't stop writing. I hope you get the proper help. Please hang in there!

I know that Margaret had a bad weekend, but I'm sure that she will be back on her just as soon as she can and will see all the support she has from this group!!

Thank you for all that have posted and to all that will be posting after me! I feel like she needs to see this!!

We miss you Margaret!! We hope that you will be checking in as soon as you can!

Hope you're feeling better today Margaret! We're thinking of you. Keep fighting. You can do this. I will keep you in my prayers.

Hugs!