traumas coming through...

Oh Marie, I'm so very sorry. I think you and I have spoke privately about my issues dealing with LD for so long and the PTSD that I was dealing with. I think that there are actually quite a few of us that need this kind of help, so don't feel alone.

And I think that the other Counselors that you had spoken to previously were right, you likely don't need meds, only some resolution with your health issues - but how to get that?

Is there a way you can start slowly? I do a type of meditation that helps me most(mindfulness meditation), but I also find helping others a type of therapy as well I think. It literally gives me something positive that has come from what I've been through.

More than anything, I want to express my sympathies and that I can understand at least part of what you are going through. I'm so sorry.

Thank you

Trav, i found helping others helpful too. But my brain isn't doing well. I can't process long texts, or listen to others for a long enough time. I sometimes get these clear moments, but they are rare. That heavy brain fog is making me healing myself so much more difficult.
I'm trying to implement one supplement at a time, trying to get on track again.

Girlie, Thank you

Marie, I am sorry to hear you are dealing with this, its a tough place to be.

I have also been having similar issues with trying to 'redeal' with past issues that I thought I had dealt with years ago (not really things I feel comfortable speaking about on a forum) and like you I am from a culture where you deal with it yourself. Trouble is no one actually tells you HOW to deal with it and to be honest my past coping mechanisms (pre Lyme) were probably not ideal. OK, not sensible in the slightest!

I don't think I have PTSD per se, but I have nightmares that often spill into my waking day and they are issues I get caught up and lead to paranoia anxiety and depression and end in real uncontrollable rage. This cycle of events didn't start until after I got Lyme so I know the two are connected.

This is one reason I decided to go to the yoga and meditation classes. I guess it's my attempt to find a way to 'deal' with some stuff in a constructive way.

What I mean is that I completely understand that 'fear of getting started' and being unsure of 'opening that door' because what if it won’t shut again?? You are certainly not alone and I think more people than you realise do completely understand. If there is any way you think anyone can help just know that we will, like Mister Mike said :)

Sending hugs and positive vibes. We are here for you if/when you need us xx