I wanted to ask for prayer tonight. I have been really struggling bad with depression and anxiety to an overwhelming level. I almost went to the psych ward or call 911 yesterday bc I felt so overwhelmed and couldn’t cope. I had an increase in stress a week or so ago and felt bad for short time and I thought I was ok but then the past several days I’ve had bad to the point of not wanting to be alone and anxiety and depression seems to be alternating and sometimes together but it’s constant and driving me insanae. I know that my thoughts are not completely rational but I just can’t calm down.

I messaged my doc about starting an antidepressant and I have xanax but it’s not helping much. She prescribed me xanax but I tried that in the past with another doc and it didn’t help but seemed to make my mood worse. I’m still waiting to hear back from her and it’s just so hard waiting bc it’s the weekend. I just want to start something now. I have a great friend who has been extremely supportive and letting me hang out with her a lot this weekend and my sister has been with me today. But I just feel extremely anxious when I start thinking even a little bit ahead. Everything feels so overwhelming. I’ve been taking GABA and l theanine and sam-e at my doctor suggestion.

I just pray that I can feel settled again and be a me to think rationally again. I did lose a very good friend suddenly due to a legal issue and it has been extremely tough so I think that’s why it’s worse. And my family has never been extremely supportive bc they have there own struggles and issues. It’s been a lonely battle. My sisters do love me though and I know my sister who lives with me would before anything for me but it’s been hard for her too. And she works night shift a lot so I’m alone a lot in the evenings and this other friend that’s gone had been a support and distraction to me.

I do have a good friend who has been so great and wants me to feel welcome to come anytime and to not feel like I’m overstaying my welcome. She has struggled some with illness as week and is a great support. I’m just scared about how I’m feeling and so frustrated bc physically I have been doing so much better. But with the mental stuff it’s just as bad or worse. Sorry I know I’m rambling but thank you for anyone who reads and responds. I’m just exhausted from constantly fighting something. I just want to truly rest and feel normal.

Thank you for the prayers. I have taken same in the past regularly and the others but not regularly. It did seem to help this morning but I’ve already taken the max dose of all of them. I don’t know if anyone knows how much GABA is too much. I have 500 mg capsules and have taken 2 this am and another one earlier today. And I’ve been drinking kava tea to help calm me down and it helps some. The anxiety was bad earlier and now it’s the depression is afternoon. I’m just praying my doc can get me a med that will help. Thanks for your response and prayers❤️

Hi Sarahjane,
Just want you to know that I am so glad that you have reached out to us. Someone is usually here so always feel free to post whenever you need to.

I also am praying for you and asking God to give you the strength that you need right now to help you make it through these difficult times.

Since thinking ahead seems to cause some of the anxiety maybe just focus on one thing at a time or one moment at a time.

Is there something you can do to occupy your mind when your sister is at work , like reading or listening to a TV show you like. Maybe start a small craft project, something that may help to distract the negative thoughts.

When I used to get the fearful feelings I would try to keep busy and it helped to distract me away from things until it passed.

I would make sure to let your llmd know how you are doing and maybe they adjust your medicine or try another one.

Hey on another note,its great news that you have been doing better physically, that is very good. I hope that continues for you and I am wishing you the best of healing and brighter days ahead.

Take care, Jo

If you like design have you ever seen the fixxer upper show on HGTV? Also their website has many design projects to view.

If you liked scrap booking this is another idea but a Little different: You can be creative and keep busy making collages with things you cut out from magazines. You can use any part of a ad or picture and create your own scene.

For example ,Our small town has a big 4th of July celebration and a local artist took many photos and created a really neat collage .

I have seen some pretty good pieces of artwork done in that media.

Ya know being creative is good for us and probably helps us in our healing too.

Take care,Jo

Yes goshawk my sister actually introduced me to the fixer upper show and I love it. Have been watching it a lot lately. Thanks I like the collage idea that would be easier and less expensive than scrapbooking.
Thanks pjb I’m so sorry you are going through the same type of emotions right now. It’s so overwhelming. I will say a prayer for you as well. I took a xanax and that seemed to help some I just wish I knew it will stay away.