Depersonalization

I’ve really been struggling with depersonalization it’s been getting almost unbearable the past few days. I feel like I’m losing my mind…again. I also feel extremely irritable and a lot of muscle pain today. I feel no connection to anyone. And bc of that it makes me not want to reach out for help. It’s such a lonely feeling. Before this I’d been having really bad ocd now seems to have transitioned to depersonalization. I just want out but I feel trapped. Does anyone have things they could share that helped them with depersonalization? Would appreciate any suggestions

So sorry you are dealing with this Sarah. I have had depersonalization for over ten years off and on and it's such an awful feeling. I think there is a few moon this week so maybe that's what's making you feel worse. Do you detox, I find that using the sauna helps me most. What vitamins or herbs do you take? I can not drive anymore because I feel so out of it, which is really hard. Let us know how you're doing.

so sorry sarah.

I had awful depersonalization to the point I didn’t want to live anymore. I gave my pistol and knives to my parents because I didn’t trust myself.

I totally felt that “outside my body” and “floating” sensations. the only thing that helped besides consistent detox was Burbur Pinella tincture. somehow this magical little herbal concoction really helped with the depersonalization specifically. you can take every couple of hours. 15 drops in a little shot glass of water. it doesn’t taste bad at all. I get mine from nutramedix.

please know you’re not alone- and it DOES get better.

I know how icky it feels to lose all interest in things you used to love. so hard. please reach out if you need!

Thanks @lymegirly I will try that I take burbur and pinella in morning and evening but not during the day. Maybe throughout the day will help more. It’s definitely been hard and having a lot of issues. It’s just tiring dealing with it. Thanks @brianinpa such a frustrating disease to try to control I’ll be starting a new treatment soon that I hope helps.

Sarahjane09 said...
I’ve really been struggling with depersonalization it’s been getting almost unbearable the past few days. I feel like I’m losing my mind…again. I also feel extremely irritable and a lot of muscle pain today. I feel no connection to anyone. And bc of that it makes me not want to reach out for help. It’s such a lonely feeling. Before this I’d been having really bad ocd now seems to have transitioned to depersonalization. I just want out but I feel trapped. Does anyone have things they could share that helped them with depersonalization? Would appreciate any suggestions

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I've felt this many times and became suicidal because of it, and it also made me not want to reach out for help. It was like not being able to feel anything for anyone, like everyone and everything around me was unfamiliar . It's like being a robot in a fantasy land. It's like I can see ppl and hear them bt it's all just a bunch of noise. I'm guessing this is because of neuro toxins. I've heard molybdenum helps a great deal with brain fog so it'll help with brain toxins. I believe it's just brain toxins that are releasing all this crap that cause neurophsyc symptoms which cause the depersonalization

How is your gut health? Sometimes I wonder if gut microbes like parasites cause severe psych symptoms.

@lymegirly, I’ve never thought about a cold shower lol but I might have to try it. I do try to always have ocean sounds playing at night. I had an appt with my counselor yesterday and it really helps opening up to her she’s trying to get me into doing the mindfulness techniques. I hope it helps.

@medicalnerd I can definitely relate the suicidal thoughts are so scary. Thankfully I haven’t had anymore severe ones since starting Wellbutrin. But that’s exactly how I feel it’s like just going through the motions but nothing feels real just like a numb feeling too. It’s crazy to think the toxins can do that much damage. And I get that to where you don’t want to reach out for help. Is the molybdenum an herb?it sounds familiar but I can’t place it.

@ calmlittlebudda @walking by faith—I have really struggled with my gut issues. I was having thrush off and on for months then it was almost constant. I did complete paleo for several weeks and it helped. The thrush disappeared and hasn’t been back for at least a month which is awesome. But I started having more trouble with my underarms. I don’t know if anyone else has this but several years back I had a bad rash under my arms extremely itchy and painful would be sores. Turns out it was from yeast ugh. I’ve had different creams and used silver gel. Somethings helped but it flares up at times. The doctor I have now prescribed ketoconazole cream that has helped but it never completely goes away. But I’d rather that than the thrush.

I use to be extremely strict with my diet no gluten sugar or dairy for years and slowly added somethings in. It’s been really hard lately bc the candida is making me crave sugar so bad. I’m trying to stick to honey or maple syrup but I had a few slips. It’s so frustrating bc when you feel so frustrated and depressed for all the struggles with this disease food feels like the only escape or feeling happy. I’m on lots of probiotics one general type and one type that is a specific strain. I think your right though the gut may be a huge part. I know different doctors have told me the brain is connected to the gut.
Do y’all have any suggestions to help with gut health?

@Sarahjane09 I hear you about your depersonalization. I have had a similarly-terrifying assortment of psychiatric symptoms...

Sarahjane09 said...
I also feel extremely irritable and a lot of muscle pain today. I feel no connection...

The extreme irritability.. medical term "emotional lability" yes it makes it super-difficult to live, work, relax day-to-day I know...to not be able to tolerate even the slightest stress or feeling everything could kick off in a rage at any moment, so hard to tell anyone close to you that this is not how I am, not how I want to be, that I am not myself, I would say that is a part of what depersonalization feels like...?

and the muscle pain...I have been experimenting with CBD (the anti-psychotic, anti-inflammatory, anti-spasmodic, anti-seizure cannabinoid) herb vapor/nebulizer, it works well for pain, and seems to put me in a better place mentally; I prefer CBD strains with little or no THC... as THC is sometimes too strong and can be too intense like a super heavy Herx/neuro-Herx..

lately I have been doing light yoga, stretching, exercising and very light lifting, (sometimes moving my own limbs around can seem like over-exertion)...but I cleared out some old furniture so I have more space to move around and "explore the space" doing light freestyle weights, squats, pushup, basic yoga poses.. I think that's the idea with "tai chi" peace and relaxation through movement.

I also alka seltzer gold 2-3 times a day calms my stomach down.

I can't always avoid sugar completely either, but I take a superfoods/probiotic/protein supplement and sometimes eat only ~500 calories a day and nothing else, I have lost more weight now... about 25~lbs this past year

SarahJane09 said...
@borrelioburgdorferii yes, emotional lability explains it perfectly. I feel like I’ve gotten a little better at controlling it but it’s very difficult. I do use CBD at night with melatonin and it works really well but maybe I need to the regular CBD. Do you have a specific brand you would recommend? I used the charlottes web brand of hemp oil (I think that’s what it was?) but it didn’t help me much.
I do need to try doing yoga regularly again. It does help but I struggle with the flare ups as soon as I over do it or too many days in a row. But I like the tai chi idea that would definitely help with the mindfulness I should be doing.

sry lyme brain..I think I meant Tai Chi (peace through strength, a foggy martial arts memory)...

I use a great USA-grown indoor/outdoor hemp flower provider (not sure where you're at but CBD-hemp is legal in all 50 states and you can have it delivered to your doorstep) called Eight Horses Hemp in Upstate New York...

They also have tinctures.