Posted 5/31/2023 4:29 PM (GMT -5)
And to the meat of the question: No. I can't lie about this, still terrified. Just preparing myself because I am looking to do this between 12 AM or when I wake up. I honestly don't feel the aftereffect of the tooth infection too much but I still am trying to avoid anything. Never know. It's not always something you feel, and I am smarter than that. Been looking into my prescription history and I recently found I had this kind of thing happen April 2, 2018. That is important considering I don't know what illness I had at that time. Can't seem to know the actual difference between this and that considering benzo withdrawal, lyme, mold, MCAS, they look a lot the same. Coming from each world I can tell you it's truly confusing because it's not like you know if you have benzo withdrawal by just taking ap ill and feeling better. That is one of the misconceptions. Same with lyme. You take antibiotics and you should just feel better. Not quite for a lot of folks! If I have this "setback from benzos even if I haven't taken them years after, it could still be withdrawal. If it's lyme, you need to treat it. If I treat but actually have benzo withdrawal, my brain goes back into benzo withdrawal due to it not fully healing. See my problem? Not to mention the other stuff. But is it any of that? Where does MCAS fall into all of this since it is part of all of them. It's crazy.
I often wonder if I have what all of you have. I sometimes wonder if my issue is larger or smaller, as in... what is this? Maybe it seems more severe because it is more like an acute thing, but it is acting chronic. Then I think maybe I have more than just the chronic illnesses I have and have more stuff going on. Well, we see dental is one of those issues now. My fears come from logical reasoning though, I don't want to die. Too many cytokines and my body can't handle. I am a strong guy, but I feel very weak these days. I know I think a lot but dammit, I had to! My doctors were awful and I have been though so much. To have my heart going 150 BPM while they just looked at me. They didn't wanna give me anything, they just said it would take some time. Or to be offered terrible solutions that only made me feel worse. So whenever I had a chance to get back to life, I did, and I simply ignored the rest. I'm sure there's folks that relate to this too. I just feel like an alien a lot because truthfully I am such a weird person. Even in daily life, the way I talk and such, people often think of me as such a deep out-of-the-box thinker who is either super clear at explaining, or too much for people and I confuse the hell out of them. There's never any mediums. Sp believe me when I say I am trying when I listen to people here and I try to chill out and accept things. Working through that now. I took charcoal without any bad effects. I took ibuprofen without any bad effects. I'm even eating so much more and I'm managing. My CNS is better in many ways, so I gotta keep telling myself these things to push through to the next step.
Attn saraeli: I had emailed you this last week, just wanted to let you know.