Seriously, if a person ws to sit down & think about all the *&(^% we Lymies live with - of course we are depressed!!!

who wouldn't be?? With the loss of friends, loss of whatever life style, docs telling us there is nothing wrong with us constantly, not sleeping, trying to have SOME kind of life (OK- getting myself down now!), and on and on and on!!!

I believe the reason it is so hard for me is that I feel like my life was 'ripped' away from me. I would venture to guess, I'm not alone in feeling that way.

This is why I believe we all most likely would benefit having another Lymie to talk with regularly.

Of course, this is JUST my own little ole opinion!!!!

Thank you so much! I don't feel like an amazing person:) I just don't want anyone to feel like i have/do and will do my best to help anyone that I can. Yeah, I am pretty terrified! But, mostly relieved. For them to finally find SOMETHING wrong with me is actually an incredible feeling. However, it only lasted a couple of days and now I am anxious and scared. I am still put off that I have to wait until October 20th to even see this specialst. And, then he will do the Igenix bloodwork, so then I will have to wait even longer. I want them to start treating me!
But, enough about me.lol.
I am glad that you do have people at church that you can talk to. I think in your situation that will probably be your best bet. No one telling you that they have a miracle pill. Just someone to listen and talk to and lean on. Then, if you still need help, you can try pills later. But, I really hope and pray that you don't have to!
Be careful with the natural antidepressants. I know that they are all natural, but you still need to check with your doctor to make sure that you can take them with your other medications. A lot of the natural stuff interferes with rx drugs, but since they are not fda regulated they don't have to tell you that:)
Good luck to you Nicky!

Nicky,

I agree with alone about the natural anti-depressants. The one I take works great and only "acts" like an anti-depressant but you still have to be careful. You cannot take it with regular anti-depressants and if you take nerve pills, you have to be sure you space them out far apart. If your natural anti-depressant has skull cap in it, it can affect your liver if you have liver problems. Make sure you research it before taking it.

I don't want to scare you. I just want you to be aware. I'm sure the natural one is alot safer that the regular one. Let us know how it works.

Hang in there Nicky! This disease is very isolating because it is not recognized as existing - it is all "in our heads". I have had my share of blank stares.
Maybe post on a bulletin board to start a lyme support group at school? All you need is one other person who understands. And congratulations for staying in school - what strength you have!
I hope your herbal remedy works - check for interactions, like you should not take St John's Wort (which is great) with Doxycycline.
OOOOOOO
Bev

I find it disturbingly comforting to know that I am not alone in "my Lyme"... because we all have such similar symptoms and reactions to this disease. I too feel like my life, my wonderful life that I had created for myself, was absolutely ripped out from underneath me. Everything changed almost overnight... E V E R Y T H I N G ! And the "grieving process" never ends, because there is always some new symptom or a worsening of symptoms or another friend drops off the radar or the family stops caring about every "little" thing.... they are usually "big" things to me, but they've been thru so much, they're numb to it. It never ends, it never plateaus, it never gets better... it just changes from one catastrophe to another. I still cannot believe this is my life. This morning, I feel like puking, but can't. My wrists and thumbs are tingling/burning and painful... and puffy.... I think the pain is what is upsetting my stomach. I've been crying on and off for days.... very depressed. I'm on all kinds of antidepression/anti-anxiety meds and yet I'm crying. I don't know what the answer is... I have no clue. I could go onto the high-end pain killers, but I really think that would be the end to me. I would get so wrapped up in keeping enough drug in my system that it will become about the painkillers instead of a cure for the Lyme... I just will not g down that road... I can't, I know I'd never make it back.