An emotional day

There's no good reason for it, but I've been on the verge of crying all day today. What is going on?

I've just begun antibiotics; I'm in my 2nd week now. I usually have a headache & neck pain every day, but today, those are gone and my joint pains are worse plus this emotional sensitivity is a drag.

One thing that makes me sad (beware, this may be irrational) is trying to entertain at the house here when things are not clean or tidied like I know they should. We have to have weekly dessert meetings at our house for my husband's work, and it's a big job to clean the downstairs and provide a dessert & hot tea for 16 people. This week, my husband sent me his assistant to help clean. He brought store desserts and helped tidy. The 7yo dusted. Now today I'm realizing that all these friends don't know my condition and don't know that the smeary dust all over the furniture is b/c I didn't do it. I haven't weeded in the yard. We never got mulch this spring. The front door was covered w/spider webs b/c we never use that door except for guests. Oh, my. I'm just embarrassed.

How do you manage when your friends don't know you have Lyme?

Soooo, this is a herx?

Because if that's the case, yes, I can do my feet or take a whole soak after dinner.

Would a daily foot soak be enough to fix this situation?

Thank you, Girlie, for your kind compassion. It helps to be understood.

What abx are you on? When I was on Ceftin my joints hurt a lot and I was more emotional.

I now try to take a detox bath every day. It helps me quite a bit.

Hi MamaV,

I totally understand how you feel...
Iused to worry about my house, it caused a lot of stress. Just the fact of not being able to do it all by myself anymore caused stress.
I don't mind it anymore (most of the time) (but it took some time to get over it..., I have to admit it).
I'm more like 'if you can't handle it, you are free to go and watch super clean houses elsewhere' now.
Husband is now doing most of the household. It's not perfect, but it does look ok. I stopped being too perfectionist. It's too exhausting.

I think it is a good idea though to give others chores at home. And to ask people help when it is too much to handle on your own. People don't have to know that you did not do all the work, if you are not ready to tell them what's going on with you.


((I almost attacked my neighbour last week. They are really unpleasant naggy people. We had a severe discussion, she stuck her head out of her front door and said 'you don't keep your house clean'. I almost attacked her, especially because she has never put a single foot in our house. I think she doesn't know anything about Lyme/Bart rage and didn't realize the actual danger she was in. LOL.))

Wow! If I had a friend or neighbor actually comment on the state of my house--I can't imagine what I would do!

I usually do have more help around the house. My 4 teens are away this week and next & so it's just the 7yo and me and the hubby. If I'd known how much I'd miss the 2 big girls' help, I might not have let them go visit Grandma!

MarieLS said...
Hi MamaV,

I totally understand how you feel...
Iused to worry about my house, it caused a lot of stress. Just the fact of not being able to do it all by myself anymore caused stress.
I don't mind it anymore (most of the time) (but it took some time to get over it..., I have to admit it).
I'm more like 'if you can't handle it, you are free to go and watch super clean houses elsewhere' now.
Husband is now doing most of the household. It's not perfect, but it does look ok. I stopped being too perfectionist. It's too exhausting.

I think it is a good idea though to give others chores at home. And to ask people help when it is too much to handle on your own. People don't have to know that you did not do all the work, if you are not ready to tell them what's going on with you.


((I almost attacked my neighbour last week. They are really unpleasant naggy people. We had a severe discussion, she stuck her head out of her front door and said 'you don't keep your house clean'. I almost attacked her, especially because she has never put a single foot in our house. I think she doesn't know anything about Lyme/Bart rage and didn't realize the actual danger she was in. LOL.))

Margaret,

Well, he does tidy what's left to tidy when he gets home, but he's busy preparing his presentation for the night.

I just really miss my big girls. They're at my Mom's, sending me photos of how completely spoiled they're getting there. Hmph. I'm trying to be super happy for them, but hey, people! I need help over here.

I did ask for some help tonight--you'll be proud of me. I texted hubby & asked him to move the 50# bags of animal feed from my car to the barn and dump the wheelbarrow for me. That's where I draw the line. Ridiculous, I guess. I need to draw the line back a little further.

By the way, after a foot soak, after about 20 minutes, I couldn't believe how I was beginning to feel a tad brighter.

Oh yea!!! i'm so very glad that the foot soak helped so quickly!!! I hope that all went well last night! Now you can relax! LOL! The house is cleaned enough and the feed is put away and the wheelbarrow is empty!!!