feeling alone

PS go with 'meta avrio' happyjo - it covers everything 'after tomorrow' and is far more of a practical timescale for most outcomes ;) x

Traveler - Us? Scared?? Never, lol - Panicky, yes, but never scared ;)

Can I ask did you find a LLMD in the UK, Flossie?

Hi silly sheep, yes, kind of, had to go private :-( . . . let me know if you'd like to know details and I'll send you an email

No problem sillysheep, I'll drop you an email

I just got home from work and this is the first post I looked at for some reason. I am praying for you right now. Give this huge bump on your life's path some time and it will get better! I wish I were there to give you a ride and we could go get a cup of coffee and talk. Life feels bleak at times. Lyme is really hard but it can get better. Again, sending prayers for your healing, strength and peace.
Blessings to you, Linda

Thanks guys. I am being a proper cry baby right now, but my brain will just not think this through rationally.

I worked so darn hard for my piddling salary. I was counting on my pay for petrol, a puncture repair and something to eat.

I am wondering how long it's going to take before anyone notices I sm not where I am supposed to be. My mum will be back in June, I am sorta hoping someone misses me before then???

I hope your LLMD visit went good, Flossie and sorry about your weather :p

My doc echoed what Trav said re listening to your body & backing off, if needed. So if the herx is too strong, u sure can whittle it back.

It SUX, I know! U will get thru this. Love hearing your posts-even if u are being a crybaby ;) [We all know babies cry for a reason!]. X

Silly sheep, how are you today?

Yay!!! Silly Sheep is multitasking!!!

So do you think you were having a major herx or some other type of reaction to the Flagyl?

17 hours of sleep? I think you may have been just a bit tired? What do you think? LOL!!! Glad you got that much sleep though!! Being tired makes everything worse!!!

sueg - that would be soooo nice. I must warn you, I am however not a terribly good cook, lol!! Sending big hugs and good vibes back to you :)

Traveler - On my docs instructions I am pulsing the Flagyl (3 days on, six days off) I find that while I usually herx somewhat, occasionally I herx MAJOR. I have kept a sort of diary of what happens when and I spoke to my Doc and she suspects that I just hit the 'right' part of the cycle (personally speaking it's the totally 'wrong part of the cycle, lol). I have been taking the charcoal though and I think it's defiantly gotten me through the worst of it quicker.

17 hours sleep was my body going 'shut up brain, we need a nap', I guess, lol.

Also am the least patient patient in the world, and when I am feeling 'OK' I tend to overdue it. Also when I am feeling a bit useless I also try to right that by doing too much. I fight the fatigue to get stuff done. My doc also suspects I have Bartonella and that the rollercoaster on the emotional front isn't helping. I am going to add the Bart herbs in to my regime - SLOWLY!!! - and see what happens.

Here's a laugh though - the ID's suggestion for not feeling horribly fatigued as per his notes I just received.....'do NOT nap in the afternoon, even if you feel the need to. Sleeping during the day is detrimental to your health as it upsets your natural sleep pattern' - I am considering writing back and suggesting he issues a health warning to the WHOLE of the Mediterranean area, 'SIESTAS ARE BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH'. Since the life expectancy here beats that of the North East of the UK by a decade or so, I can't help but feel he's gotten things a little out of perspective. Still, I doubt he'd see the funny side, he had no detectable sense of humor ;)


Next mission....find out what the post office has done with my rife machine.....avrio, or possibly meta avrion ;)

Yes, I think the spoon theory is an amazing analogy. Thank you for the reminder, I think I have a tendency to run up a massive spoon deficit, lol.

My mum says I need to make more like my sister, who makes sloths look hyperactive ;)

I have tracked down the whereabouts of my rife machine - long, complicated procedure, helped not one jot by Royal Mail whose customer service is about as much use as a dead hedgehog in a bag. I think it now holds a frequent flyer card?? Still, it has landed - off to collect it, followed by an ill advised by the ID doc nap :)

Wow, Silly Sheep, you mean your mail service is as bad as ours???

And I agree with Bellyfull!!! LOL!!!

Oh poor silly sheep! I can feel your fun re dealing with the local ka-ka! Keep writing as it will help you through it & is definitely entertaining! Sry-not what you want to hear! But writing can be cathartic & will be interesting one day for you to look back on.

(I'm saying that cuz I am at the moment reading thru some old snail mails, that unbeknownst to me, my mother-in-law had collected for a few years. They are from me writing from diff places we lived & boy is it fascinating for me to have those memories come alive. Even tho now, you probably want to erase the LIVE memories!).

I'm now craving tarama thanks to you! Anyhoo-hoping zzzzs will help you. I missed before your post mentioning taking long siestas in the afternoon & your doc advising not to. I so DISAGREE! If you can, do--healing time!!

I WISH I could sleep during the day or night for that matter. I am tired & wired all the time. When lying down, it is as if being held under water --like *** <not allowed to post expletive INITIALS, really?! Well, I was asking the universe waa-the-effff. If anything is nasty or dirty, it is LD, not descriptive language--eegads! Or not being able to zzzzz. Meanwhile, my spouse could sleep til the end of time if allowed [insert envy here]).

Thinking of you & sending positive thoughts from across the ocean! x (Btw, you may have to start a new thread as this one may hit an over point :)

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