having a very rough day

I didn't feel great when I woke up this morning. Tired and sore. Things went well until I was almost done with morning chores. Had a major issue with my sister via text that's too complicated to go in to here (basically more of the same selfishness from her and her blaming me for everything.....heck in her mind its probably my fault the sky is blue). I've been having bart/bab/lyme herxes every day at the end of the day, and this episode with my sister set off a new one. I wound up curled up on the floor, crying and shaking.....feeling like everything is my fault, I'm a horrible, awful person, and I don't want to have anything to do with her.

It took a while, but I was able to calm down. My dad reassured me that I'm not completely worthless and everything isn't my fault. Went to cuddle my mini horses, which always helps.

I've just felt horribly sick ever since. Very nauseous and shaky.

I just made myself eat lunch, and I wound up dry heaving/almost throwing up when I was done. I felt weak and knew I should eat, since I have another 2.5-3 hours of farm chores this afternoon....but I felt too nauseous to eat. Guess next time I shouldn't force the issue, since almost puking really sucks.

Really just want to curl up in a ball and hibernate until she leaves in September.

At least I have some extremely cute new baby alpacas and some pretty amazing horses too. Not sure if I could make it through without them.

If I didn't have all these infections and adrenal fatigue, this'd be easier to deal with. But I'm just too darn sick to deal with this stupid drama.

Rant over. Now to go cuddle a couple babies.

sayyadina, sorry that you are having a crappy day.

Try to stay positive and think of all the animals that would love your company. Siblings (I have five) can be a pain in the butt sometimes, but after a while you get to know them and know which ones to keep at an arm's length and which to hang on to when you feel weak. It is sad that your sister is inconsiderate of your feelings and your illness.

One day soon you will be better so keep telling yourself that..."I will be better one day" and don't sweat the little stuff. You are fighting for your life so don't let anyone get you down!

{{{ Hugs to you }}}
Sometimes the ones closest to us have the ability to hurt us the most. May you find much peace and comfort today. What a wonderful thing to be able to hang out with baby animals!

I'm so sorry you're having a bad day Sayyadina! It's awful. Cuddle with your fur babies. That helps me when I'm feeling down. I hope that everything eases up for you soon! Lots and lots of hugs!!!

I just saw the photos - those babies are so sweet...I bet you just love to be out there with them! (That is, when you're feeling up to it)