Shifting

The continuation of lyme wars at home. I think I realized things are shifting, and the person I have been sharing my life with for 25 years may not be able to accept me and my experience in life, and there is nothing I can do about that. It was so very, very, very strange to hear... "but the Dr.'s haven't found anything"... as if I have been faking being as sick as I am. At least we are talking and I'm giving him space and I am in the flow of right action. Glad for a great therapist for support. Direction to be strong in who I am. It was nice to not be feeling the detox/herx burn last night. Decided to take a break from the cats claw as I settle into the chinese way of healing. Lots of positive synchronistic encounters today to offset the shift on the home front. I somehow see things working out.. which means... perhaps he will shift and grow.

Very wise words from Cd.

My husband has chronic health issues that forced his retirement early, yet when I had to go back into treatment this time, it's caused some issues, even though he's supportive of me, my diagnosis, my understanding and knowledge of not only these infections, but how I need to treat.

Give him space and time. Try to encourage he learn more, but don't force it. We are here to help provide support as well.

Such good counsel - thank you! Commitment, space, time. He isn't at this point interested in learning about lyme, or hearing the perspective of my psychiatrist or therapist, so I think I'll table trying to educate and work on acceptance. I think I got lost night what needs to shift in me. A sense of not feeling worthy of being loved, treasured, valued for who I am. I can shift that, slowly. As I shift that, and the abandonment issues, this will undoubtedly help. I can celebrate I do have such great support in my life: here, a few friends, my care team, my cat! ground into gratitude and take space.

PeteZa,
Yes - I have left stuff on the table - and emailed some articles, which he read. At this point, I think it is wisest just to let go of trying to educate him. He's a brilliant man and is smart enough to figure it out, perhaps he'll shift and grow curious as he sees me grow healthier and his health continues to deteriorate. I think though I will print out the articles on a bulls eye rash and diagnosis (he had one from a tick bite) and the most recent research on the blood supply and getting it that way (I think I mentioned before he donates blood and the naturopath concluded I either got it sexually from him, or while in CT dancing in grassy fields, or the northern part of Slovenia). Or maybe something about the lyme wars. I am going to follow your prompt and leave something on the table he occupies in the kitchen and take space and give space.