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I went to a party tonight, and the first person I talked to, the wife of one of my bosses who just happened to be there asked about my health. Her brother had/has lyme, and she had info. to pass on. The second person I talked to was a biologist and her daughter and brother both had/have lyme. Her brother went through hell. He was going to Mexico for anti-biotics... when the Western Blot was first being developed he travelled and asked to be tested, he got tested, and tested positive. He lived 10 years with it...and with the results he had...they said..wow...and put him on IV anti-biotics. My intuition is telling me I could benefit from them. She told me that if you get a diagnosis from a naturopath in CA that stands..and your insurance company has to honor that. She told me there is someone in Thousand Oaks she would trust/recommend. Her brother's marriage broke up over the lyme. ... I wonder if mine is headed the same way (we aren't legally married). My spouse made it crystal clear today, after I use up my savings on treatment, I am on my own, he won't help. We keep separate finances. I realize, in the 25 years we've been together, I've given him $135,000 in rent to pay towards the mortgage on the property he owns. When I told him tonight, I can't afford to live in our ultra expensive community any more, he asked me, where are you going to go? The other night when I mentioned a local intentional community he said in a small group of strangers... go ahead, you move out, I'll have more space. Wow... this infection really stirs up things on multiple levels... pain pain pain... rain rain rain... it all comes out in the wash somehow! I think these spirochetes are teaching me, I deserve to be valued and the body I live in is sacred, and I deserve to be treated as such. What a nice lesson to give! Thank you!

A powerful, painful lesson. I think Lyme has a lot to teach us. I'm so sorry you're going through this, multifacetedme. Wow.

I agree with Girlie - and I got the same lesson! I AM valuable. If not to those around me, then I need to change those around me, not believe their words. A hard, painful lesson to be sure.

I hope that things work out somehow, so that it's best for YOU. We are the ONLY ones that will protect our health, and we have to take that seriously, or we loose it all.

Please, please never feel stupid for sharing what you are going through or is happening. We aren't here to make you feel foolish or anything else - we are here to help support you, help you see the truth of what you are going through. We are your online friends and support system possibly - that's how it's been for me, which is why they can't get rid of me!! LOL! I won't leave all my friends!!!

I usually suggest Lyme patients to not do anything drastic, even when it comes to a relationship because of what you said - this is very hard on relationships, but there are times when it's really called for.

And I so agree about how you find out who's there to truly support you and who chooses to only continue to take. It's our duty to our health to only surround ourselves with those that will lend support - even if that means we only have a few close friends, and they are online!! That's the way my life is, and that's okay. I have a few sympathetic family members, but they still don't want to hear about how things are going with my treatments - but at least when the chips are down and my health is falling out again, they are there with the support I need.

I have a "Lyme" green ribbon tied onto my purse and I wrote on it "Lyme disease kills" and on the other side, "Ask me about Lyme!" That gets a lot of people's attention. I talk to everyone that wishes to talk - or hand them my email address if I honestly don't have the time.

I agree that our paths were meant to cross - all of us here as well! There are many Lyme forums, yet we are all in this one (and maybe others) together.