Keep plugging away, pmm73, and try to stick with that positive outlook. I can't promise everything - no one can - but you just gotta keep trying. The positives will come, if you find a way.
Plus, even if it successes are slow to come, the repetition of positivity starts to condition you to think that way.
For example, though I have been struggling a bit lately, I still think of things like "well, I'm going to try this, try that" or "just keep going - you have made it this far." I do not expect 100% good health, but some, a portion. Also, I do not think of it so much as an "if" anymore, but a "when." All of that is to say that these thoughts and feelings are very unlike how I was, say, a year ago.
Lyme/co want your energies, just as much as they want your mental and physical bodies. You want to be sad, feel like poopie, or so your health has you thinking. Don't. It's hard, but try your best. Do not let them win over your spirits as well.
Life is precious, and our seconds in time short. Though sick, days spent with struggle and ache, drowning in the brain fog, I would rather not let spend my seconds unhappily. I have dreams.
So.. try, try, try. :D
Also, congrats, Trav! Maybe now you could start doing some of my homework for me? I have a comp paper that is due tonight. Hint, hint. Haha.
Anyhoo, best wishes, everyone!