The modern world puts so much emphasis on work and carriers, a cog in the big wheel- makes me want to puke. Were all part of "The Machine" as sung by Pink Floyd's David Gilmour. And the cost of living is finally out of reach for many. I see why so many of the "kids" nowdays are getting nowhere, cost to live is overwhelming to them. College required for some $12-15 hr jobs? Realy? Just another cog.
Daily living: with partial healing..hmm.....90%,80%,75% healed sounds great at first. For people who have not gotten there yet, the more you heal, the more you want FULL healing. Healing is addictive, being partial of your old self is still depressing. Functioning is surviving, not living. It becomes a mind game with yourself.
You can remind yourself of the less fortunate, doesn't really change things though. When your young, there is so much time to heal and just try new things in life. Once you've been there, done that, (older) there is already less to look forward to, as you've lived already. We change as we get older too, and have to accept the change. I try to enjoy easier things, while looking back at the great things (to me) I somehow accomplished with lyme for 25 years. Later there were things I could no longer do, but I also did some stuff I never thought I could do. I have to have nature and a very wide variety of music in my life. And I keep busy with do it your self projects that I'm able to do. Some days I cant do them though. And cant forget those who fought for our freedoms we enjoy today. People died for us to live. Was four generations of men in my family, I owe them something, something called living. It could be worse.
Work (four letter word): I under-employ myself for health and sanity, keeping out of the spotlight. Others in my life dont get this either. In my 25 years of changing symptoms before lyme treatment, I was most ill when my life was most stressfull.
Its get harder to live the simple life in this day and age, but thats my answer, despite my dinosaur ways.
The "Off Switch": There's a few people I knew who flipped the off switch. I will never forget them. One was an ex a long time ago, very confused young woman, a whole life ahead of her. Gone. The whole carrier/job thing was part of her problems, but still didnt have to end like that. I was not totally shocked, saddened, yes. She was a good person.
Post Edited (astroman) : 11/19/2016 2:56:35 PM (GMT-7)