Think I am Losing It - Too Much

In 2000 roughly, I was bitten by a tick, didn't know it was embedded in my elbow crease of forearm. Did go to doctor at the time, if I recall correctly. I also believe I received initial abx treatment.

Fastforward to now, I have been in a complete decline healthwise for the last several years. Everything from kidney issues, heart, liver, muscle, cartilidge, blood, skin, emotional, psychological, structural and basically dissolving into a puddle of nothingness.

I didn't know - or didn't put the pieces together till about a month ago. I'd gone to doctor after doctor - and just like everyone else was told it was fibro or something suspicious but they couldn't pin-point what it was because the results were vague - i.e. not staring them in the face with a huge label on it.

Had a bone scan just done - my entire body is inflamed. Ortho doc says - go swimming. Neurologist says - you have ADD. Here is Ritalin.

So I'd go back home, order more supplements, buckle down, try not to contract anything else because my WBC and RBC were low, and immune system was/is so critically fragile.

Every day I am in more pain, more neurological deficits, more heart issues, more liver pain - I am self-treating because I have no where to go to get help.

I am so sad. I don't know what to do at this point. Is this how my life ends?

I haven't slept throughout the night in years. I have 2 cats that are keeping me going, I wouldn't harm myself, but I just can't deal with this anymore by myself.

Hi,

I am taking herbs and various supplements for immune system. Nothing drastic. Also no abx. I am not in the care of any doctor who knows about Lyme - am in Israel. Tried finding someone here - to no avail. Forgot to mention, I have been steadily losing muscle mass - basically wasting away. I think this is an emergency is there ever was one. Been doing what I could over the years, now I really need help. Thank you.

Hi Ioana,

Thank you for your kind words. I am feeling completely hopeless right now. I couldn't even travel if I could due to my care-taking of my animals - I simply cannot leave them. Taking them is also out of the question because one is ill too. I will have to find some way to either work with someone locally or else someone abroad who can be in touch with my GP and give him instructions. Because Lyme is virtually unknown in these parts there is such a vacuum in treatment.

I am just extremely sad at this whole thing and how it played out. So much energy and tears. I try to stay as positive as possible but it has gotten to that point of crisis where it's hard to get through an hour let alone a day. Reading all I can - Buhner's protocol - ordered the herbs - that will take a while till it gets here.

Thanks for joining us, Joyous. I hope that you find the support and encouragement you need here.

Would it be possible to get a friend or someone you love and trust to take care of your animals so that you could travel somewhere?

I can't imagine the hopelessness you're feeling. Hang in there. Hope is never lost. I'm saying a prayer for you today.

Hi Joyous -

I'm so very sorry you are having a hard time with this horrible disease!

I'm glad to see you are pursuing the Buhner protocol, and I hope it will bring some relief for you.

As mentioned earlier, detoxing would be good while you wait on your Buhner herbs.

Hugs to you,
Denver1

Thank you Denver1. I've been into herbs and healing my entire life it seems. Buhner and others like him have brought herbology to a new level where it is right up there face to face with conventional allopathic medicine which is fine. I love that. He is very knowledgeable and this is what we appreciate so much about him. I've intuited what my body needed over the years, mostly to strengthen it and reading his work now I see that I was pretty close to his suggestions. Ashwaganda, Siberian Ginseng have been allies throughout. I cut out sugar years ago, eat meat maybe 4 times a year, fish rarely as well - the bulk of my diet is grains, vegetables, seeds and some fruit. I must detox my liver though. I am just building up to this - psyche-wise.

Sorry to hear of your struggle. Try Psyllium husk or Chia Seeds to get things going. Although Alcohol is not advisable, it releases GABA and relaxes the Chorionic sphincter. (Can't really say have a beer in the morning but it can help a BM every now and then.) Or try eating leafy green salads for every meal one day. I find this helps my mood and everything. If it makes you feel better, I often feel at the edge of a seizure, nervous breakdown or losing my mind about a few times a week. Magnesium helps. Vitamin B. Beta blockers will block the adrenal panic. This disease suxx I know.

Traveler - Thank you. Those very good herbs to use. Will try to up my game a bit with them, and start chewing better - loss of bone in mouth also contributes to not being able to consume well. I think the issue also lies in age and enzyme deficiency to actually digest the food and it all ties into the liver which really needs to be healed/detoxed and loved. It has to work so hard.

10LymeB - thank you. It's dark, but the light is there, somewhere. Just have to start resonating with it. I hope I will have the inner strength to do that.

Joyous, you can use just one post and mention each person by name, or you can use the 'quote function' by clicking on the "exclamation point button" (the one that looks like this: !) in the upper right hand corner of the post you wish to quote.

As I said, I've dealt with serious constipation issues all my life - except for the period where I was healed for 3 years. If I can be of any help to you, just let me know, either on the forum or by email.

I also have the lowered digestive enzymes, and the loss of dental bone - and I discovered this morning that my one very deformed wisdom tooth is acting up again. It's never actually moved (shown in xrays), but it swells up and acts like it's going to about 2 or 3 times a year. Back to softer foods for me again.