Question for Bailey! 😃

Hey rainy!

Thanks for asking. I’m a mess right now. My mcas is acting up, and I’m wondering if I’m going to starve. I’ve developed ocd where I feel the need to wash my hands where at times I feel like I need to wash my hands any time I touch parts of my own clothing to anything my mind decides to be scared of at that moment.

I’m trying to finish the paperwork for the cci/chiari office and wondering if I’d even survive a surgery with them given how most things supposed to help me often have about 20%-30% success rate and I don’t know how I’d cope with fallout from a brain/neck surgery when I still haven’t recovered from doing mri’s in September.

I’m frustrated with lack of support from loved ones and yet recognize they’re the only ones even trying to offer significant support. I’ll email you more… I don’t want to vent all my relational frustrations on the internet….

Test kits for next tests have been sitting on my floor since I need help completing them. Honestly I’m in that state where I’m on the edge of medical catastrophe and if I think hard enough to create a detailed description of everything going wrong, it could push me over the edge.