Posted 6/21/2023 12:37 PM (GMT -5)
Looking at your post on a grander scale, not pinpointing relationship loss, yes Lyme can make life suck in many ways. And although being alone, can be lonely, there’s time to spend on other things. And between laying on the couch, of course speaking of which I recharged on the couch every day, sometimes several times a day. I learned to go with the flow or lack of flow. Whatever that day presented to me.
But lyme or not: Sh/t can and does happen in life. We can die anytime from numerous reasons beyond our control. This happens. And you realize this more as you age, because you see it around you.
Then you realize to just appreciate the small things in life. But to do this...you need to get "out of your head".
I think many people in general have to many expectations of self and others. Online media is part to blame for this, as everyone is apparently "special"...
Well...no ones "special" or deserves more than others.
We have different talents, some people just take a while to discover theirs or they need a kick in the but or a reason to "self" explore.
The term "make lemons out of lemonade" can come true and in surprising ways.
I had that happen to me as an adult athlete before lyme got real bad, but I had lyme while competing for years. Then a window of opportunity presented itself when I wasn't ready...but I had nothing to lose. Glad I went for it. It was a very difficult and painful day. But it was a child hood dream/accomplishment that I thought would never come true as an adult, and then it did.
I know what I cant do...and dont dream about that. Im a realist. The above scenario was at the very edge of my abilities on a perfect day, so it wasn't impossible. But that day was far from perfect, and I narrowed in at that window of possibility with extreme desire and timing accuracy while having an injury handicap half-way thru the event. It was the hardest single thing Ive done in my five decades of existence. Eight years after that, Lyme made things that very physically demanding impossible to do, so that chapter of my life ended, but I did move on to some other non-physical accomplishments/dreams.
So dont underestimate yourself, but dont over estimate your abilities either. Practice make perfect (in anything) to some extent. As long as the desire is there one can overcome hurdles in life. Those hurdles and dreams will vary greatly per individual.
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I just used this personal example which I have a few other examples too (non-athletic ones), but dont need to write a book. In everyday life, Im kind of an almost lazy version of a regular guy. Certainly NOT an over-achiever.
The next thing on my bucket list, requires no physical abilities, but some major networking to make the opportunity even possibility to begin with. It might NOT happen as I'm not really willing to travel very far out of my region. It would also help put a closing on my fathers sudden death that happened when I was in my 20's.
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[These are things my father tought me (RIP) , a member of the "greatest generation" he faced numerous life and near death grand hurdles/experiences, one after another. (Thanks dad , … fathers day was three days ago).]