Posted 6/17/2017 12:31 PM (GMT -5)
Welcome. I just wanted you to know that all the statistics you've been looking at aren't really very valid for someone your age - your probability of remaining recurrence free after treatment, your probability of no ED, and your probability of remaining fully continent are a lot better than those stats.
Also, know that prostate cancer is almost always very slow growing in early stages like yours. This means you have many months to make an informed decision, probably years would be fine too - but you'd have to be on an active surveillance program to be safe, and with a GS 3+4, it's risky to wait years. I hope, in fact, that you will not make any treatment decision for at least a month. The decision you make a month from now may be different or the same as what you think now - but you owe yourself that gift of time. Slow it down.
Your emotional reactions are very normal. I'm glad, in a way, that you are an "emotional wreck when alone" -
it's the guys who suppress those normal feelings that I'd be more worried about. I, and probably everyone else in this forum, can relate. Receiving a cancer diagnosis has been compared to PTSD, and I think you will find benefit by treating yourself accordingly. See a psychotherapist, learn to practice Mindfulness, seek out a live cancer support group if there's one nearby, exercise a lot. I found that gaining knowledge helped me a lot, others find that adds to their stress - everyone's different. I know the initial shock will wear off somewhat with time.