It's that time again!

Hey guys. I know I'm not on too much anymore but just wanted some of that healingwell comfort you all seem to give. I go in for my colonoscopy Jan 3 at 9 am and I am so nervous. I do a two day prep since I don't get cleaned out on a one day prep. I start on Monday and prep until Tuesday night.

I'm having a lot of anxiety about it- just not eating and then pooping my brains out. Makes me think of my past flares when everything causes me pain and I poop non stop. I've been depressed all week just thinking about it and was panicking at the store last night picking out my jello and juice.

I figured I'd come on here just to say hi and then give you the results when I get home on Wednesday. I've been pretty crampy and gassy the past few days but I think it is my period. I haven't had any UC symptoms in a while now.

Anyway, feel free to leave a comment and let me know how you are doing, too. I think about you guys often!!

Have had 15-20 scopes. Have had UC 32 years. Plan on a lot of rest bc u will be wiped out. Drink clear fluids if allowed. And dream of your first meal after your all done. U will be fine. Keep your mind busy that thing between my ears can cause me a lot of anxiety so I need to think as little as possible. Good luck

hey B girl - always nice to hear from you - sucks that you are feeling .......... sucky !

yup i get those thoughts too - do not want to revisit the past again - EVER -

it's always a weird time of the year - for some reason things just get funky - but then they always straighten themselves out and we're back to just the usual stuff - you'll be fine -

how was your Christmas ?

Thanks, momto2boys. Hope you are doing well!!!

3timechamp, oh gosh. That is a lot of scopes!! I plan on reading as much as possible tomorrow. I just started the Dexter series so that has been really fun and good distraction.

Twingirls, you are so right. Being put to sleep is my favorite part! HA!

Lonnie, have you had a scope recently?? I hope you and the family are doing well. Christmas was interesting. No cooking involved. I went to the bakery and raided the baked goods (all cookies!) and went out for Chinese food! I think that might have been one of my favorite Christmases yet!! Did you guys have a nice Christmas/New Years??

Serenity, We are the same. I love eating salads and veggies so not having that does suck. I went out for Thai last night and had a big red curry so that probably wasn't smart, but hey, I figured I'll be pooping it all out anyway!! I have only pooped once since I started drinking at 1 pm so I'll probably be on the can all night! My goal was to take a relaxing hot bath tomorrow to help with the cramps but I have a feeling I'll be hopping in and out to poop.

Hope your scope went well this morning!

Still in Clinical Remission!! Woohoo!!!!

It went really well today guys. Everyone was so nice and I had the best anesthesiologist. She put the oxygen mask on my head and once she did that, I was completely out. I didn't even feel her put the anesthesia in my vein so I'm wondering if there was something else with the oxygen?? I have no idea. I didn't even have time to count backwards from 10. I don't remember most of being at the hospital either but apparently, I was hilarious and making jokes with everyone.

He said there was obvious evidence of severe pancolitis and scarring and that my colon still looks like a lead pipe. Very smooth with no lines? My mom can't remember what he said. Also, I already knew this, but there is a large hole between my small intestine and colon due to severe inflammation in the terminal ileum. The IC Valve is gone and stays open all the time. He did see some white spots in my rectum and sigmoid that he biopsied so I will let you know what that is when I get those results. I honestly don't know what it is but I'm guessing it might be leftover prep powder?? Who knows?

But anyway, I'm happy it is all over and hope I am in remission for my next one in 2-3 years!

"Still in Clinical Remission!! Woohoo!!!! " congrats!

Thank you Kara, Ipoop, Spring, Mom, and Flowers!!

Spring, it just means that the ending of my small intestine has opened up so wide that it is the same size as my colon and there is no flap there anymore. We are born with a valve between the two that opens and closes when food is done digesting. When my UC inflammation was very bad a couple of years ago, it eroded away the valve and widened my small intestine. Now, food goes into my colon when it isn't properly absorbed or done digesting.

Great news, thanks for the update BG! Sounds like your clean-out went well? Did you try anything new/different that helped?

So glad it went well and things are looking good! You have known about this ileum issue already, right?

not surprised that you made folks laugh - awesome that the big R is in your corner -