Posted 8/24/2015 10:09 PM (GMT -5)
Thanks but i am not brave, just out of options. I have been living pretty miserably for the past few years.. This most recent flare up didn't have a break for 18 months. I tried everything. I think surgery was a necessity for me. It wasn't like I opted for it because I wanted to. I was totally against it for so long. I agree that losing a major organ, especially one as essential as a colon, is not good, but what is the option? Being 30 and wearing diapers and pooping myself? Not going out and living my life within 10 feet of a toilet? Giving up work opportunities? I can honestly say that as foreign as an ostomy bag is, it's liberating compared to having uncontrolled UC. I would imagine you would have to be pretty bad off to feel this way so I guess I was worse than I let on. I accepted the lower quality of life and said "I'm ok", that's exactly what I was, OK, never good or great, just hoping for a better tomorrow. It wasn't coming in my case. I am sure of that.