Stomach is upset which always makes my anxiety worse

So today is my 28th birthday and its supposed to be a great day! Supposed to go to the casino tonight with my mom and grandma! and as of last night and this morning anxiety is pretty bad. and now my stomach is upset which always makes my anxiety worse, but it is upset because of the anxiety in the first place!! such a big cycle I always have going on!! I just feel so shaky inside and like I cant take a deep breath in. this has been like this since I ate dinner last night. I ate at like 10pm because we didn't get home until late and my two older kids are with their aunt so me and hubby just had a late dinner. my in-home therapist (I guess you would call him!?!?) is coming at noon and it is 10am right now so at least he will be coming, but this is like the worst anxiety that I have had in awhile and I don't want to be a mess for my intake paperwork with him and everything. I haven't taken my Xanax in awhile and I really don't want to right now. once I start it, its like my body needs it once it wears off or I will be a mess again. another cycle I don't want to get into again but I really do need it. ugh this is awful. yesterday I was so emotional all I wanted to do it cry and EVERYTHNG was getting on top of me. I should have known anxiety would be taking over soon just because of that. I really think it is hormones. I recently had a chemical pregnancy(an early miscarriage before 5 weeks) and one of the causes of them are from the woman having a hormonal imbalance I guess it said on the paper. im always so emotional and anxious and when I feel this way I get a few pimples .. I just feel like I have a serious hormonal imbalance which is causing the anxiety, depression, and panic. I just really hope I can get out tonight and enjoy my night with my mom and grandma and a few friends at the casino without anxiety getting in the way. I haven't went out or did anything in probably two years now. I don't drink or anything because it makes my anxiety 100 times worse, so I do stay away from that, and everything that makes anxiety worse so I know I am doing everything right.my body is just seriously out of whack! and I don't know why ): well anyway I am hoping to win big tonight at the casino!! wish me luck!! ha ha ha have a great weekend everyone!

First of all, happy birthday!

Second, remember that even happy events can make us feel anxious. The happy excitement of a night with your loved ones could just be making you feel uneasy. Try to relax, and maybe do a mindfulness video before your new therapist arrives.

Hormones absolutely cause anxiety. It really is okay to need a Xanax. I get that you don't want to feel dependent, but don't be your own worst enemy here. I know a bit about that. If you need to take one, do it.

I hope your birthday is wonderful.

Happy Birthday Lacey! <3
Maybe your mind is a bit too much focused on the plans you've made?

Try coping skills like breathing.
I hope you have a fantastic birthday and have so much fun :)

Lacey I want you to think about this, maybe it isn't what is bothering you but just in case, ok?

I use to be the same, it seemed like another birthday brought me Closter to my death and It would do to
me much the same as you describe you are feeling.

"After much Prayer and meditation it dawned on me that everyone is in the same boat, and we cant get
out until it lands somewhere, In all of creation the only measure of time is (now) and now is all anyone
on earth or mars has, now is the constant, it's where we really do dwell, You have as much now as I do,
and so on".

Now is eternal, it is always, it is yours and mine, we are alive now, so the logical thing to do is enjoy it
love it, rejoice in it. It belongs to You and you can do whatever you choose with your now. "Live"
Lacey I am 73, I wasted many years worrying about how much was left on my clock, lol the clock has no
hands, we are alive now, and this old man is going to make a samwich and have a coffee! Right Now.

Happy Birthday Kid!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Peace
Larry ***