It has been along time since I went to my inlaws, now....

I'm supposed to go to a get together this Saturday, I already have anxiety over this. I want to go so they don't get upset or talk to each other about me, but I really just want to stay home again. Home is my comfort and this would be stepping outside that comfort zone. A part of me says, just stay home, who cares what they say about you. Why does this have to be a dilemma? Why can't I just be normal?
I need to let you all know that these people like to drink, and it's a huge part of their lives. I used to drink along with them, and I was very social because of it. Now...I don't drink, haven't for over a year now. I'm thinking it was my liquid courage. Now I don't have that and it makes me anxious, I don't want to return to those cans of beers and cigarettes to cope. My husband doesn't drink either and he says I will get used to socializing sober. Wow, this sounds so stupid that I'm anxious over seeing my in laws because I don't drink.

I don't think that sounds stupid at all. Is it a situation that you could leave if things start to get too rowdy? It took me awhile, but I learned that it is okay to not go to things that make you more anxious. Your mental health is the most important thing. However, if you could go for a little while then bow out at your leisure - it wouldn't hurt to try. Do whatever makes YOU comfortable. :)

Deb,
I don't think you sound stupid at all. I would have the same fears. Alcohol and cigarettes are crutches for people, especially when dealing with anxious and stressful situations. I used to have a couple of drinks, too, to get my courage up but since I've been on Accutane I'm supposed to be without alcohol for six months. It's been tough, but like SC, I use the power of visualization to produce the most positive outcome. I always tell myself... "I can always leave if I have to." This provides me a lot of comfort knowing I'm not stuck anywhere.