Hello healing well family its saturday night here and I'm alone in my room with some pizza and a can of ginger ale….would be better if I had a loving woman like I've had in the past but what can ya do right..well anyway I had a pretty good therapy session on friday. We did a work sheet on my thoughts and how to correct them to start thinking in a more positive way and to be honest It worked well and i liked it can really complain…she gave me a work sheet and wants me to make copies and fill them out when ever I feel anxious and depressed. I think its CBT and I was always wondering what that was and if it could help me out. I usually feel crapy cause when i come home from work I know I'm coming home to nothing…I know my parents are here and Im grateful for them don't get me wrong but Im by myself and Im so stuck and feel like Ill be like this forever. someone tell me please…will this pass? Im starting to feel like it won't and Im so scared. sometimes I wish I could cry and let some out that way I really do but it won't come out.

Im still feeling so strange even still now and I don't know what the hell this is. I can feel fine one day and the next I feel…well I dunno if its depression or what but I don't feel normal and would love to feel like myself again…I don't have any symptoms of depression or any common symptoms id say. I just want to know what the hell is wrong So i could try to fix it. I go to a therapist and working on that. I have no problems waking up and Im still into all the things I've been into and I have a healthy sex drive and even eat normal….not healthy but pretty normal id say….I have crazy panic attacks from time to time but nothing i can't control and even though I hate the feeling I can handle it and it passes but then the odd depressed feelings set in and i hate it cause the thoughts are unhealthy and I can help but to feel like…well crap to put it lightly and even when I feel this way Ill go to work and even socialize be around people so I don't understand I really don't know i really don't. Will meds help? will therapy help?? whats gonna make me feel like the old me again? I come here and vent and Im really trying here I really am but nothing is working. I use to like being alone and being in my thoughts…after this breakup and other life events I'm feeling terrible and It didn't happen right away it kinda came to about a year or so later…is that normal? someone please answer that. is it common for anxiety and depression to come about years after stressful events occur ??

Well that was my rant and Thanks for reading and I hope you all are feeling some sort of peace and well being at least for a little while

home to nothing…I know my parents are here and Im grateful for them don't get me wrong but Im by myself and Im so stuck and feel like Ill be like this forever. someone tell me please…will this pass? Im starting to feel like it won't and Im so scared. 


I know that feeling all too well. There's something about coming home and not being around people that makes me feel secluded and anxious rather than comfy and at peace. My anxiety symptoms came back recently, so I'm actually texting this from a Starbucks. I've been here way longer than usual, but I'm feeling a lot more comfortable around people and distracted with my kindle.

Meds and psychiatry work wonders. And with Monday approaching, that means plenty of offices will be open. I'm going to see a PCP who I hope will refer me to a psychiatrist. It's worked before, it gives you someone who will listen, and believe me, almost all of us have those feelings during anxiety when we wonder if it when it will pass. I've been thinking about it a lot on my end.

No matter how long I spend away from the board, people here are always willing to listen to you. Keep posting with us as you go through this!

Post Edited (HappyHopper) : 7/3/2016 2:15:24 PM (GMT-6)