The good and the not so good

Have been doing well but last night was rough. I was sweating, had rapid heart rate, some chest pain, shaking. I was getting scared and was fighting the want to go to the ER. I got through the night without enough sleep but that is ok. I made it so all is good.

I'm not sure but I think a person I talk to triggered it. This person whom I am very close to has a habit of being aggressively grumpy sometimes and I just feel weird when it happens, kind of like when you feel your bp rising. I had been dealing better with it but it set me off yesterday for some reason and I allow myself to feel crappy. I just get tired of the negativity and I am trying very hard to be positive and not anxious or depressed.

The weather has been beautiful here and that has been helping me. I spend as much time outside as I can and I love it. I plan to get back in the sun today too.

My dear glad you posted this as we speak my chest feels so heavy..my boss has been so grumpy the past 2 days..he keeps on apologising making an excuse that he is not feeling well..he is even chasing our clients away and the business is suffering which makes me suffer.. I'm even thinking of staying away tomorrow. I don't want to go back in taking Benzos ...I'm so frustrated... just letting u you know you not alone..lets hang in there and do our coping skills..everyday feels different.. God is with us..hugs!

T2R,

I am glad last night and today were better for you.

Sometimes we can't avoid triggering people altogether of course...but we CAN set boundaries, and it sounds like you have started that process, so well done!

Peace and progress my friend!

S.C.