mvtchi:
The 2nd time I read this I started looking at the number of relationships that had ended, and I'm wondering, if, like me, you might be bipolar.
Then as I got deeper into it where you're going off into art and creating and having a hard time concentrating and working, and, to me, as someone who simply has bipolar, I'm thinking that does sound more like that.
Also, the length of your post, like most of mine, very long.
Have you ever been diagnosed as that?
You say you see a therapist, but that person probably doesn't diagnosis does he or she? As someone who has bipolar, and had trouble when it "hit," and leading up to that, I would suggest not going down the road that I did, but to see a psychiatrist.
At least he or she can diagnosis you. They can also perhaps suggest medicines, you don't have to actually take a prescript
ion home with you unless you choose. But I would suggest, just listen to what the doctor has to say.
And perhaps go back for a 2nd and 3rd visit. I don't know what the insurance situation is with you. You can look up "psychiatric clinics" or such in your hometown on the computer "Real Yellow Pages," write down some phone numbers, and call and ask about
their rates.
Many of these clinics are sliding scale, all the way down to, I don't have any money, and they will stlll see you. That's my
thinking.
Instead of that, this is what I did: Lost a job, got depressed in a few days. Few days later I'm really depressed, and not knowing if I can get out of it.
In depression, it's even harder for me to make a decision, like, get a psychiatrist, even though I'm thinking of it every now and then. Three or four weeks from the start of the depression, I have a nervous breakdown.
I get to a psychiatrist, which is no guarantee, although it pretty much is if you just go to the emergency room, as happened with me with another nervous breakdown. They gave be a shot of Librium tranquilizer, and thank goodness, I got back to where I was, and went to see a psychiatrist.
I'm now on Lithium and an anti-depressant. With the Lithium, it felt like the air being let out of a balloon, I was so uptight, and didn't know it. You're gonna love it.
So I'm trying to get you to avoid that collapse, like I had. I don't know that you have bipolar. But as someone who has that, I see some signs.
Vincent van Gouh had bipolar. What was he, an impressionist. He would love to have had Lithum. They didn't have it in the mid to late 1800s. They have it now.
They can treat bipolar. You won't lose your creativity, you'll just calm down so you can paint. It won't be a bed of roses, even if you taken Lithium. There will be difficulties ahead.
But if will be much easier on you if you have bipolar and you take that.
You said,
"I just wanted to speak my mind."
(me too)
"Will everything be okay?
(I don't know, but you need to take care of yourself, like I did not.)
Am I doing enough?
(You're expressing yourself, very well. You reached out for help, very well. If you get diagnosed, in my view, you will be doing a lot.)
Can anyone relate?
(Yeah, me. Yeah, try to be positive that you can get through this. Don't try to solve all of your problems at once.
"One problem at a time, and be positive about
that problem."
One thing is, you might be both the patient and the caregiver, which is not an easy situation, because I've been in it and I failed miserably.
Post Edited (Tim Tam) : 3/16/2017 11:44:36 AM (GMT-6)