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Posted 10/16/2014 8:19 AM (GMT -5)
My anxiety started 6 months ago! I was going back an fourth to the docs for pains in my stomach, doctors kept brushing me off so I started googling my symptoms and of course then diagnosed myself with everything! I paid to go private and everything was clear but by then I had pains in other areas and I thought I had cancer, I became so ill and worried that I was going to die young and leave my son without his mummy, its all I thought about! I took my first anxiety attack in work, it was so scary I didnt know what was happening to me I thought I was having a stroke as my hands clasped closed and I really thought I was going to die there and then! My boss phoned an ambulance (so embarrassing thinkin about it) and I got brought to hospital were I was checked over and sent home! From this attack iv been constantly panicking incase it happens again! Stil back and forth to the docs worrying about everything and felt like they wernt listening to me. To others I put on a brave face but inside im crumbling! When im in work I spend half my day talkin to myself and reassurring myself that I wont have a panic attack! My doc eventually gave me propanonol but although these do help take the nervousness away iv had to stop taking them as they are affecting my asthma quite bad! I feel like a shell of the person I used to be, iv recently started obsessing over things for example if im putting petrol in my car if it goes 1p over wat I meant to put in then something bads going to happen (crazy I know) and also if I go out for the night im thinkin this cud be the last time I see my son as somethings going to happen to me! Iv also started to get intrusive thoughts, they hav came from nowhere and im scared at the fact they are in my head! They are disgusting and things that I would never do which makes me feel disgusted in myself for even thinkin them, iv constantly cried with the shame. I wake up in the morning and feel like theres a black cloud above my head! Iv so much to be thankful for in life iv a beautiful son who i love unconditionally, i miss the old me :(��!!,!@
Posted 10/16/2014 9:05 AM (GMT -5)
I feel you imiss! Hopefully it will make you feel better that we have all pretty much been where you are. Anxiety is a scary thing!! luckily there are ways to combat these terrible symptoms. There are a lot of great coping skills located right here in this website. There are many medications. Sometimes you have to try a couple to see what works for you. Therepy is so, so important when dealing with anxiety and panic. You can get your life back!! Get the ball rolling and don't give up:)
Posted 10/16/2014 9:12 AM (GMT -5)
Thank you, to be honest a small weights been lifted off my shoulders knowing im not alone! Iv never spoke to anyone about it before as im embarrassed and ashamed of the intrusive thoughts and fear they will think iv gone mad! I fear i hav myself with some of the thoughts going through my head! I would do anything to feel normal again, i hope i can put this behind me soon as my heads about to explode x
Posted 10/16/2014 9:52 AM (GMT -5)
Momtogigiandquinn gave you great advice! You definitely are NOT alone OR going mad! Anxiety makes you feel like you're losing your mind but you most certainly aren't or won't.

The intrusive thoughts are maddening! I struggle with that too. Even with the petrol! If it $31.24, I have to make it $31.25 or I feel it's bad luck. I'm not always like that but I definitely struggle with it sometimes. Many of us do. It's a bit of OCD which loves to rear its ugly head when we're struggling with anxiety.

Get the ball rolling and see a doctor. There are short acting meds like benzodiazepines to help with the anxiety or long term meds like antidepressants. Therapy is a must in my opinion, whether you decide to take medications or not.

What you're going through, albeit upsetting and uncomfortable, is extremely common after having medical problems that you can't find answers to. Same thing happened to a friend of mine with her stomach. Turns out she had candida in stomach and once it got treated, her anxiety went away.

Also, stay off of Google! It rarely if ever helps and most times, makes our anxiety worse.

Come here for support. We understand completely!

Sending love-
Lisa
Posted 10/16/2014 9:55 AM (GMT -5)
Thankyou lisa i feel so much already having came on here! :) yes im off to the docs on monday, im sure they will be delighted to see me back again haha x
Posted 10/16/2014 10:41 AM (GMT -5)
You've been given great advice already, but I wanted to send a hug and let you know you aren't alone. My first major panic attack also happened at work and an ambulance had to be called. Do not wait on therapy, because that experience may haunt you and trigger so many more panic attacks. You can recover from that experience and put it behind you with a little help!!

Hugs!
Posted 10/16/2014 10:57 AM (GMT -5)
 

Hello and welcome!

I am sorry to hear of your anxiety challenges.:( We do understand and care...and am glad that you have joined us.

When you have your upcoming appointment...can you discuss therapy as an option with your doctor? He/she may be able to give you a referral to someone who could really help! I went to therapy for panic disorder, and learned to manage my anxiety quite well.

In the meantime, and as an enhancement to any treatment option that you ultimately choose...here are some self-help recommendations for you. These sites offer really effective solutions for the issues you describe.

Take a look, try them out...and keep posting! We are here to support.:)

For help with intrusive thoughts...

Self Help site with Anxiety Indications, Self-Help and Worksheets

http://www.moodjuice.scot.nhs.uk/anxiety.asp

Therapy Work Sheets:

http://www.get.gg/freedownloads2.htm

For lowering overall anxiety and reducing panic...

Self Help sites with breathing/relaxation exercises instructions

Panic attack relief exercises:

 

http://www.healthcentral.com/anxiety/c/73076/34334/breathing-lessons/

http://www.healthyplace.com/

http://www.stress-relief-exercises.com/

http://www.ehow.com/video_4405003_breathing-exercises-panic-attacks.html

http://www.psybersquare.com/anxiety/panic_relax_I

 

S.C.

Posted 10/16/2014 11:11 AM (GMT -5)
Hi

A big welcome to our forum I am pleased you have found us and as you can see you will get good support here from the members. It sounds like you have been struggling with health anxiety which I can relate to as I also have that but I am not a doctor so always best to get things checked with your doctor and try your best not to use Dr Google.

I can relate to what you were saying about intrusive thoughts as that is also something I struggle with what has really helped me is therapy I have done Cognitive behaviour Therapy and Mindfulness which really helped me get my anxiety under control speak to your doctor about getting a referral.

Please keep posting here and let us know how you are getting on we are here to support you.

Hibee
Posted 11/18/2020 1:11 PM (GMT -5)
Yes exactly what I have...intrusive thoughts, anxiety especially if I hear of someone being sick or something that can make me sick ...is a horrible feeling
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