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Posted 6/8/2013 12:29 AM (GMT -5)
I just can't seem to shake this idea I'm having a heart attack. Every pain is a sure thing. Right now I feel a little nausea. But I'm not sure if its that or I'm hungry. To worried/panicked to try and eat. No shortness of breath except for the almost hyperventilating I'm doing. Trying to control it though. Had a little upper jaw pain when it started. So I'm freaking out. Pacing the house sweating and shaking. Almost can't think straight to type.

UGH I hate this. I really really hate this. I did so good for almost 3 months. And its back in full force with a vengeance. Its like payback for having a break. Seems worse than it was a few months ago.

I try and tell myself its ok to feel scared/upset. But its not ok to go as far as to panic. Sometimes that helps calm me down. I'm setting myself limits here. Usually it works. I feel a little odd talking to myself. But if it works I'm all for it.

Could wake up hubby. But I hate doing that. He doesn't mind (at least that is what he says). He never really wakes up. Just kinda gives me the "I'm sorry" snooor. Which upsets me even more. He tries to support me but I think he is just tired of my 'issue'. And he knows to well it will go away. I just don't think he understands how scary it is to feel the way we do.

Helped a little tonight( reminding myself its ok to be scared). But coming here and writing it down is totally calming me down. It helps to 'see' what I'm feeling and to be able to understand how I'm feeling. Looks like You all are gonna end up hearing more from me than normal..lol
I just wish I could read most other posts and give a little support as well.

Ok feels more like a hunger pain than upset tummy. I don't know why I've gotten to the point I really can't tell the difference. Or is it my mind jumping to quickly to the upset tummy?

I think my anxiety/panic was way better when I was able to eat 3 times a day. I'm back to once maybe twice a day. Thinking I'm not hungry its anxiety has got to go. lol

Back to my gaming. Gotta keep myself busy for the next couple hours or I'll go back into 'freaky' mode.
Have a wonderful night ya'all
Hugs
Allie
Posted 6/8/2013 12:59 AM (GMT -5)
Allie you are not in any danger, I am a 71 year old man who has heart problems, the feelings from PAD
are nothing even like a real HA, I will not describe it because so many of us have health anxiety.
Please trust me, You are ok, almost everyone who sufferers from PAD have this fear of death but its not
realistic. Some foods can cause distress in intestines this can make your chest hurt, I use to wonder why I
couldnt hurt on the right side once in a while. A final note no one ever dies from PAD, it didnt kill me and I
had heart trouble, we're all a lot tougher than we think. You are in my Prayers! Peace!

Larry ***
Posted 6/8/2013 3:32 AM (GMT -5)
Thanks Igm1942.

It helps knowing I'm not going nuts totally. hehe

I do feel better and thank you for not describing the situation. It would of for sure threw me on another panic attack =). Or set my brain into motion of freaking out thinking I was there.
I really do appreciate it alot. Along with your words of encouragement help a ton.

Thanks
Allie
Posted 6/8/2013 4:45 AM (GMT -5)
"We're all a lot tougher than we think." Thanks Larry for this reminder. Having health anxiety makes me feel a little bit hopeless. I know I shouldn't let myself feel this way but still I do. With these weird things happening and sometimes it's like getting worst, all I could ever think of is "this is the end of me!". I just miss how I was back then and how other people can be so free from anxiety "I used to be like one of them.". When I was out with my wife the other day, I wanted to cry but didn't because I don't want people to think that my mind is all messed up. Now I feel weak and scared, I feel that I couldn't protect my wife from real danger or I'm not capable of defending myself from an assault that will just cause me to panic, raising my BP into dangerous spikes and get a stroke or heart attack for real.

Anyway enough of this negativity. I still feel loved and blessed being around my wife and family and having people that truly cares. Wish you well Allestaria! I hope and pray you'll have more good days to come! Stay strong!
Posted 6/8/2013 11:43 AM (GMT -5)
I am sorry you are feeling high anxiety right now but remember you are a person with anxiety and you are not going crazy.

Once I get on the merry-go-round of anxiety it is hard to stop the "stinking-thinking". Sometimes you can break the obsessive thoughts by telling yourself you are not sick; get up and do something to keep your mind off your bodily symptoms.

Coming here and sharing your feelings is a good thing and we are here because we care about each other. Keep talking with us.


Kindly,
Kitt
Posted 6/9/2013 4:56 PM (GMT -5)
Hi Allie..........Four months ago, my husband was hospitalised with a massive panic attack. It stemmed from health fears as he had been in hospital 3 times in the prior few months with other conditions. He got so bad that he wouldn't go outside the house. When he had this attack he put his blood pressure up to 206......He has suffered from LOW blood pressure for many years!   confused

Anyway the reason I am telling you this is because we are Christian people and there is a book called "I DECLARE" by Joel Osteen (He pastors the biggest church in USA...46,000 people per week in his church) We live in Australia by the way. Anyway I believe this book saved my husbands life....in a manner of speaking. It is 31 positive affirmations and a really short story after each one. The 31 is one for each day of the month. If you were to get it today you start on todays date...9th. I highly recommend this book to anyone even if you have the smallest belief. It is a paperback so is not expensive...$13.99 in Australia....It can be bought in any Christian bookshop here....My husband and I are reading this book daily still and are on about the 4th time round! By the way my husband is better now than he has been in the past 2-3 years. No more panic attacks and doing all the things he used to do!

DEFINITION OF FEAR:
F.......FALSE
E.......EVIDENCE
A.......APPEARING
R.......REAL

I sincerely hope this helps someone reading this!!

Posted 6/9/2013 9:34 PM (GMT -5)
Sandy,
I second you saying to read Joel Osteens Book. It is awesome and I highly recommend it!
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