Crumby

It's been 10 days now that I've had left side pain under my rib cage and pain into my back .....made myself go see my doctor regardless of cost and she wasn't sure what's going on and ordered an abdominal ultrasound for tomorrow morning. Could be gastritis, pancreatitis, gallstones even though it's opposite side ...

Ugh ...I'm freaked out. Trying not to think worst case scenario but its hard and I'm terrified to be put under anesthesia and 2 of the 3 potential problems could require it. Needing help /distraction from thinking worst case. Thank you! !!

I'm so sorry! I totally understand your fear!

I know it is scary to have such serious possibilities. Try to focus on the less frightening possibilities, though. Sometimes diagnosis is a matter of ruling things out. By this time tomorrow, those scarier things will probably be ruled out.

Resist google! You can do it! May the healing well force be with you! :-D

In the meantime, I suggest distracting yourself with something pleasant. I'm sure your pain limits the choices some, but here are some ideas - hit up redbox or netflix and watch some good movies, cuddle up with a good book, bubble bath, write a letter to an old friend from high school (even if you don't have an addy) or a love note to your current sweetie, or a letter to your children to read years down the road.

I'm sure you can think of something to get that mind on a different track! :)

Sending you hugs, prayers for a simple diagnosis, and a virtual hand-hold through the test!

Thank you everyone! I still don't really have any answers but my gallbladder was stone free & my pancreas was normal size. My spleen is borderline enlarged she said but the ultrasound technician was surprised my doc hadn't ordered blood tests yet. I'm still super nauseous & feel icky but hopefully soon I'll know what the heck. It means alot to me you guys are here for me.

Thank you!!!

I'm somewhat more positive, just been really working on fighting off an anxiety attack because I have the "in a dream" feeling due to increased anxiety/worry over not knowing whats going on and feeling so lousy. I am also leaving for 3 days camping with family out of cell reception tomorrow after a full day of running around alone with the 3 kids to their appointments. I want to be feeling well and on top of my game so to speak.

I am planning on calling my doctors office again in the morning to ask for the third time if my doc can order a CBC or something to try to determine whats making me feel so crumby. I almost think gastritis. Makes logical sense and matches the pain I have. Way better than pancreatitis or something big and scary... but regardless I would like to know for sure so I can deal with it properly and more forward.

Love all my HW family and again, thank you! :)