Posted 3/5/2015 11:17 PM (GMT -5)
The last time I posted on here I was a hopeless hypochondriac and I thought I had MS. Finally, after countless tests and trips to the hospital, I found out that the only thing wrong with me is anxiety and panic. I was fine for a couple of weeks after finding out that I don't have MS or other diseases, but now instead of worrying about physical illness, I'm worried about being crazy. I'll be sitting in class (I'm a Senior in High school) and then I start to feel like I'm floating and everything starts to feel unreal, it's like I'm spaced out or something. I think the word for this is depersonalization....? It's really scary and quite annoying. It's the worst during my 6th and 7th period classes, but I don't know why because those classes aren't even stressful, and I have actually grown a fear of going to them. Last Friday, I felt like that, but it was really bad, so I had to call my mom to come and get me. I am honestly afraid to go to school and I don't know what to do. I'm also afraid that I'm losing my mind. Is this just an anxiety/panic thing or am I legitimately going insane? I should also add that I take 5mg of Buspar (anxiety medication) twice a day for about 4 or 5 months now, but I feel like it does nothing.