Bad/questionable therapy leaving hurting me so much lately

Hey everyone,
When I first came here, I told you about how I felt about my previous therapist. Most days I am just so angry and upset. I should've listened to myself from the start and now a year later I just feel so... manipulated and brainwashed. But it's hard because I suppose it's true I DO have anxiety, so I am doubting myself and how I feel at times. I didn't think I needed medication before we started working together but now I do just to cope with the way I feel towards her. I think I need to talk to someone but I'm not sure I can trust anyone right now and the thought of another therapist makes me sick. I want to get over this and be myself again. I am just so scared that may never happen, and that her voice/presence will always be there. It just makes me sick thinking about it.