Posted 8/13/2015 11:16 AM (GMT -5)
I had my first panic attack about two months ago and just after it started, I was convinced that every attack I had was a heart attack (or god knows what ever other disease came up in the google searching of my symptoms), the way that they come one seems to change, every time I seem to identify a certain feeling of pain as just being caused by anxiety, its as if my body decided to trick me and make the pain different the next time. I've made massive efforts to stop myself obsessing and searching symptoms which is stopping me from going into dull blown panic sometimes, but there are still so many occasions where I desperately want to call an ambulance because i'm so convinced i'm dying. I'm in the process of having my heart checked out with tests and stuff, which the doctor said we should do before dismissing all of the symptoms, so I haven't yet been able to get any treatment for the anxiety and waiting for appointments and results are making it worse.
Since this all started, I haven't felt like I'm able to live my life at all, I feel like I'm completely isolated because I've cut out drinking and other things to try and make myself feel better, I make every effort to see my friends and to get out of the house and do things, but I'm so preoccupied that I've been finding it hard. The only person I have been able to tell anything about this is my boyfriend, but I'm scared that I'm becoming too reliant on him for support and as much as he is being fantastically caring, he has his own mental health problems and I worry that I'm going to end up dragging us both into a horrible place with this. I've tried sitting down with him when I'm calm and talking about it, but he just tells me not to worry about him.
I'm feeling so scared and like such a burden at the moment, any advice would be great