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Posted 10/25/2017 4:48 PM (GMT -5)
I made the decision today, after being back and forth for so long, that I need to reinstate my Zoloft to a therapeutic level and stabilize, before continuing to withdrawal.

Even though I've made this choice, I can't help but feel like a complete failure and I am an incurable person. Not to mention, I made this decision completely alone. I haven't told my significant other because she thinks that it's "all in my head," and "you're just overreacting." As much as I have her support, she is very anti-SSRI. I'm not sure how I will communicate this with her, but for now, the only person I'm discussing this with is my psychiatrist. And, this forum. I haven't felt well for a long time. I'm dealing with chronic depersonalization and derealization, and a surge of depression. I wake up every morning feeling like I was hit by a train. I can't even exercise anymore without having exercise induced panic.

While the neurofeedback has helped tremendously, I'm realizing that I do need more. I want to feel like myself again, and laugh again, and have some type of emotions again. While the Zoloft numbed me out to certain things, and at times made me pretty aloof, it helped me. It really, really helped me.

Would love any words of support and encouragement for this time.

Feeling really, really down.
Posted 10/25/2017 5:11 PM (GMT -5)
Blus,

If you have taken your time with this...and it is not a decision that you are making because you are having some rough days...

(...and it sounds like you have...just reminding you not to make any sudden decisions)

Then, you should do what is going to help you ultimately feel your best...and of course we support that.❤

Don't consider this a failed attempt at anything! You worked hard, and discoverrd new coping skills...as well as a new understanding of what you need for your best management plan.

Now you can put all the pieces into place for your best progress from this point on.

Keep us updated, so we can keep you surrounded in encouragement!

S.C.
Posted 10/25/2017 5:12 PM (GMT -5)
You have NOTHING to be ashamed of. I think you've made some WISE decisions here. You should feel good that you are taking control. That is very healthy and will help you in your recovery. smile
Posted 10/25/2017 9:12 PM (GMT -5)
I agree . you do what you must do to get well again
Posted 10/26/2017 3:07 AM (GMT -5)
Hi Blu

You have to do whats right for you keep us posted we are here for you.

Hibee
Posted 10/26/2017 11:55 AM (GMT -5)
Thank you for all of the support, guys <3. So appreciated.

I raised my dose today by a little bit (12.5mg to 18.75mg). I think slow and very steady will be key to avoid any s/e's. If this helps any symptoms, then I will stay here for a few months, and then withdrawal at a 10% reduction every other month to eliminate any withdrawal symptoms. If it doesn't help, I will continue to climb back up until I reach a steady point.
Posted 10/26/2017 4:55 PM (GMT -5)
Blu's,

Good plan...keep us notified...we are cheering you on through this.😊

Well done friend.💪👊

S.C.
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