Posted 12/27/2018 2:11 PM (GMT -5)
I have a long history of having PTSD, major depression, generalized anxiety disorder and bipolar. With my first pregnancy, I did have some depression but, nothing I couldn’t pull myself out of eventually. Though, I did suffer horribly from PPD afterwards.
This go around I have overwhelming anxiety and daily panic attacks (not to mention the depression). I can’t connect with this pregnancy at all because of it and I don’t even want the child anymore. I can’t even enjoy my daughter or fiancé. I don’t even feel like I love my fiancé anymore when before pregnancy things were obviously different.
I have talked to my OB and psychiatrist. I am on 100mg of Zoloft and they are taking a risk of putting me on a low dose of Atarax. Obviously I was taken off all of my other meds.
Has anyone suffered like this during pregnancy and have any suggestions? It’s so hard considering you can’t really get much help while pregnant. And no one around me really understands my feelings or that I can’t get over it.