Posted 3/16/2019 8:03 AM (GMT -5)
My anxiety is compounded by phobias. Due to bad experiences with doctors i have more then the white coat syndrome....I wish I could shake this fear. I know you're going to say go to a therapist.. intellectually I know that . And I'm trying to do that. Although I feel therapy may not help at all. This is more then hypochondria. Partly yes. But not completely. Because of witnessing so much suffering and bad experiences with doctors. It has gotten worse. I think everyone thinks it's fear of death. No I fear illness disability etc. Death at least would end the panic. NO NO I'm not going to kill myself I wouldn't do that to my family. I have no desire to commit suicide please believe me. I do not have suicidal thoughts. It has never come to that or gone that far. I wish I couw an ld come up with a solution. I think the anxiety and panic has caused my heartburn. Which I have posted about. And that has created a new fear. Like how can I face this ...how can one live on antacids. thanks for listening.